hmmm... yea... cant seem to... but watever...gotta keep trying... i guess its normal and all.. feeling the after effects of it all and its seriously affecting me.. cant seem to concentrate on anything cause i always seem like i'm thinking of... yea.. cant even play hockey properly cause of it.. and if its affecting my hockey game, then its pretty serious.. well.. exams are in 11 days. time to buck up... hahahh...today in tutorial was damn funny la... only me, mingrong, charmain, cherie, ann, jennifer, an ren..oh ya..and daryl. but daryl was sleeping...haha.. so we were talking to mrs yap and we somehow got onto the topic of our english teacher, GCM... den she asked us " wy u all don like him"....den we all started laughing and i gave her a long long list of reasons.. and she was like "really.. he doesnt seem like such a bad person" HAHAH.. and i said "madam..u donno him well la... i mean,. if anren and charmaine don like him...den obviously got sth wrong wif him.." den she juz laughed...hahah... okok... anyways... yea.. ermm... monday's hockey game was like shit... i played like crap.. probably cause... sigh.. yea... the worst ive played in a long long time.... sigh.. i really wish i could move back to the US... i really miss it... sigh. my frens, my hockey team. my sch.. yea...aargh..then i can get away from here, from exams, from stress and especially from this.. part of me wished that i didnt move to the US in th first place.. then maybe i wouldnt dislike spore so much.. i wouldnt have left all my frens in AHS.. i wouldnt have to catch up the first half year of lessons i missed... i wouldnt have... nvm.. doesnt matter..wats past is past and u juz make the best of it.. shit la... aft exams still muz go to sch for 3 extra weeks TO STUDY...SHIT... everyone else finishes sch on oct 31... my sch finishes at Nov 18..like WTF la.. everyone will be out having fun while i'll be stuck studying like mad.. and by the time i fianlly get off sch..evryone will probably go on holiday to some other country...sigh..watever la.. anyways heres this really nice song that i really like..i like the lyrics...haha
"Pieces" - Sum 41
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me rea
lI thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
On my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easyI guess
I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
