less than 2 weeks into the hols and im so bored its not even funny.. priss!! hurry up come home!! movie marathon!! everyone's leaving on holidays. well, everyone but me that is. my parents did offer to bring me to god knows where but i declined.. i dont really like going on holidays.. seriously i dont. unless the holiday has themeparks written all over it. so yeah. christmas is coming. highlited by every single shop and mall insisting to play stupid christmas carols we've all heard over and over and over again every single year. i mean seriously. isnt there anyone out there writing new christmas songs.. the next time i hear jingle bells.... urghh. yeah. i really dont like christmas.. christmas sucks. bleah.. and how am i supposed to make YOUR christmas happy? hahaha.. you know who you are (:

so on a brighter note. went ice skating today with andrew stephen daryl nic tim kenneth jonho sarina jerilyn steph steph's bf.. yeah. 12 of us.. and i must say.. a very random 12. haha.. like who would've thought the 12 of us would actually hang out together., but it was fun. was teaching nic how to skate. and i conclude i do not have the patience to be a teacher. daryl and i had the need to go faster and faster as adrenaline pumped through our veins with each lap of the rink. sadly, our need for speed was curbed by a mixture of tightly wounded ppl in charge of the rink, a HUGE amount of ppl on the ice and stupid figure skaters just wastin ice space with a whole area of ice all to them self for them to spin jump fall twirl fall spin fall leap fall and make tons of holes and scratches and divots in the ice in the process.. i really dont like figure skaters. they just ruin the beautiful game..

theres this song by Plain white T's. Hatee (I really dont like you) here are some lyrics

Hate is a strong word
But i really, really, really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around and you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you
I really don't like you

bleah..

fake friends are like shadows. right there next to you when its all bright and shinny. but nowhere to be found when its dark and gloomy.. fake friends are there when they need something from you but never there want you want something from them.

i hate shadows.. i really do..

remember how i said the year 2006 has passed by so so quickly.. well.. its true. i mean, prom's over. holy crap. i mean. it seemed like just yesterday we were all talking abt what prom would be like. who'd be going. whether we;'d have dates. and we'd say that theres still a long way to go go to prom so we needn't worry. well. proms over and those questions were answered. it was alright. good i guess. almost all year 4's 5's and 6's went. and no.. some of us didnt have prom dates. but prom isnt abt dates is it. wait. who am i kidding.. yes it is. haha. but hey. friends are better than dates sometimes. haha. so yeah. prom. formal. bleah. haricut. bleah. although ppl liked my new hair style so i guesss that was good.haha. yeah. thank you ipod video and prison break for keeping me occupied for the hour i waited before is started. thank you andrew jonho uwei debbie tim daryl daryl's date shun and shun's gf for a good table that provided plenty of laughter and fun. haha. thank you prom comitee for organising it. thank you mom for paying the extravagant fee of $95. thank you people who voted me for the "most unlikely couple" and letting me win flowers.. haha. well. yeah. it was good. cant really remember much. dont know why. but yeah. prom. good food. good company. horrible music. lame yet R rated games. and oh yeah. MAI TAI!! haha

remember how i said the picture of the 4 of us at my birthday parties was one of my favourites. fast forward 8 months.

well. dont we look old. well. old enough to fool watiers and waitresses. haha

HAHAHA.. this picture makes me laugh for some reason. the moment after this was taken. i said "i feel so gay doing that" haha

(: (: (:

kathi!! haha. (: kristi has other pictures with me and her. haha. send them pal!!! i'm waiting!

happy thanksgiving.. thanksgiving. a meal, usually of turkey, with friends and family, giving thanks for stuff.. oh well.. i had a "thanksgiving" lunch and dinner. kinda i guess. with friends.. and my brother so there was family.. no turkey though.

jonho slept over last night. woke up at abt 11 today. met ong squared at mrt station.. thne went to get food for everyone.. and we had our "thanksgiving feast".. me andrew stephen my brother and the twins. haha. sarina came later and we watched "troy" while getting fat over ice cream and chips.. so yeah. then the girls went home and me andew stephen and jonho had our own thanksgiving dinner of macdonalds while watching "date movie". haha. it was fun. what thanksgiving is about. in the company of your friends.. eating drinking, being merry. having fun. talking. blah blah blah. haha. yeah. so its like almost a week into the holidays.. boooorrrrrriiiiinnnggg.. urghh.. and im real tired right now.. and i really want a ps3. random. and priss nat.. M.M!! HURRY!!! haha.

Have, You heard the news that you're dead?
No one ever had much nice to say
I think they never liked you anyway
You're Dead
take me from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand
aint exactly what you planned
And wouldn't it be great if
We were dead

You're hiding from something cause it's burning through your eyes
I try to get it out but all I hear from you are lies
And I can tell you're going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again we're playing up emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end

Her eyes are open like a book
Her fingers stroke her hair to look
A moment feels so out of place
This will left standing in disgrace
Paint your fingernails at nigh
tStyle you hair in the bathroom light
Hatred never looked this good
Whoever thought it could

Don't be fooled my friends aside'
cause I see nothing in those eyes
All said and done
This won't be fun
Make no mistake
Those smiles are fake

Take, take, take, all my time, all my company
Take everything from me
Fake, fake, fake all these things that you say to me
Nothing that I want to believe
I think the time has come to set it straight
I need to change this frequency'
Cause everyone just says the same old thing to me


bleah.. i feel read sad now thinking about it.. i mean. imagine something really good.. and then it turns into something soo damn bad.. bleah. i feel damn depressed thinking about it la.. ): sighhhh.. i dont know. can i really blame you? maybe. maybe its just who you are? maybe it was all fake from the start and i didnt realise it till now. URGHHH!! ): ):

ssorry char-maine.. i know you hate it when i write these kinds of posts..

2 more papers till freedom.. cant fucking wait.. im kinda in like semi freedom cause like i donno why but i haven really been taking this exam really seriously.. bad yes.. but too late now. todays papers were quite ok. just add math left.. im bored.. so very bored.. so that time like i posted random photos on my blog.. and someone got pissed and jealous cause her picture wasnt posted.. so yeah.. here!!! HAHA

HERE!! HAPPY NOW!! haha. if not..


THERE!! i posted pictures of you.satisfied? haha

(:

kristi after someone made her cry.. cough cough.. sorry kristi!!! i think she looks better! haha
one of my fav. pics of all time. (:

look past the facade and you'll realise that nothing is ever what it seems.. you see.. what you see is just what people want you to see.. the sad thing is, you never know whats real and whats fake. and when you finally do realise the truth, its too late and it hurts so much.. even when things are crap and you know its so fake, you sometimes just continue pretending everything is alright and you smile and you laugh and it sucks so bad cause all of it is fake. the smiles. the laughs. its all so damn fake. you want thigns to be real. to be genuine. not just some facade to satisfy everyone. but that doesnt happen all the time. we live in the real world not in fairytales.. happy endings hardly ever happen. sometimes you blame yourself.. sometimes you blame other people.. who's really at fault.. i mean.. you know. things seem to be all fine and dandy.. peaches and cream.. only on the surface.. cause deep down, beneath the fakeness and falseness, the lies and the deceit, there's something dark and not so nice.. and you see. its hiding beneath all the bullshit and fake smiles. one day.. one day.. when all said and done and thigns go real bad or the falseness just cannot continue anymore, the darkness will rear is ugly head, and no one will be spared.. tears will flow.. feelings will be hurt badly. bonds torn apart.. hearts just overcome with grief. smiles turn upside down and everything fake will die away and reveal the god awful truth. that day may come. i pray to god it wouldnt.

physics paper today was crap.. fucking hard.. sighh,.. oh well.. hopefully mcq and practical will pull me up.. bleah.. hung out with kathi after physics while waiting for andrew charmaine and andrew. was in the library for awhile. i gave kathi a damn precious christmas present. HAHAHAA!! kathi u better treasure it! and now u owe me a christmas and birthday present! haha. then we were like walking through our school fun fair. kathi was pigging out on cupcakes.. no wonder kristi's so much hotter!! HAHAHA.. jkjk.. so yeah. and she became like a stalker. weird i know. then went to brekko's with charmaine mingrong andrew nad her. so like the waiter was kinda slow., slow being an understatement.. like i ordered "chicken cordeun blue". and like the rest got their food after so long and i didnt and i asked the waitress was like "yeah. a sandwich rite?" i was like wth. no. then she picked up the receipt and was like "you ordered chicken wordorff" WHAT!! "ermm no.. i ordered chicken cordeun blue. the waiter worte down the wrong thing" so like.. i was getting pissed but we were all rushing so i said i'd take the chicken wordorff thinking a sandwich would be okay.. and it comes nad it turns out, chicken wordorff is a fucking salad.. so i had this $8 bowl of salad sitting in front of me with really sour apples and really gross and disgusting dressing. i just ate the chicken and andrew ate my salad.. fucking disgusting. the worst lunch ever! ii mean 8 frikking dollars for that.. yuck. and i was still hungry afterwards. should've stuck to burger king. oh wait.. not just $8.. plus 10% service charge and 5& GSt which added $7 to our meal.. 7 frikking dollars.. thats like another meal la!! omg.. and service charge when the waiter couldnt even take down my order properly.. bleah. okok. people do make mistakes. but the woman was like "yeah. your sandwich rite" so i thought it was a sandwich which wasnt so bad.. but salad.. yuck.. gross dressing.. yuck. and how the heck does chicken cordeun blue sound like chicken wordorff?

Along with the people inside
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know

char-maine was right when she said photographs bring back great memories.. haha.. yeah. so i was on the phone with her, she was like, "so is water a good conductor of electricity?".. -_- yhaha.. no duh.. she's damn funny la. and i realise that like we have the stupidest and the most random conversations ever.. from smelly breath to physics to people we just totally hate to hot girls. ahaha.. the list is endless. i think we've talked abt like all kinds of nonsense. haha. its great how we can just talk abt anything thats on our mind.. no matter how stupid or retarded it seems.. (: don worry sis.. ill do my best k!! (: haa

so my parents are both overseas til saturday night.. urghh. its so stupid la.. everytimes both of them are overseas, im in the midst of my exams.. damn.. oh well. lifes unfair like that.

its so stupid how i find myself back in the same hole i promised myself i wont fall back into. bleah.. retarded actually.. ):

so im like really bored. so i was looking through my pictures in my laptop.

3 muskateers!! (:

yup thats me.. in may in malaysia against hongkong.

that was 1 sec after the first picture. haha. yes. i scored.

HAHAHA!! daryl!!! LOL

kristi!! ipod charger pal! (: hahaha.. damn funny la this picture

soo seductive! HAHA

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