today was really really weird.. i did tons of thinking today.. about what has happened and what might happen. half a year is almost gone.. yeah.. you know what.. i feel free.. liberated in a way... cause for the first time in 4-5 years.... yeah.. its cool i guess.. but the many things that have happened drove me to where i am now.. liberated.. free from constraints.. free from pain and sleepless nights.. for now i guess... its kinda retarded though.. how it became like this.. i donno.. its been a weird few months.. i donno.. but the hols have been boring.. but peaceful in a way.. oh well. 3 more days and then back to the drama of school.. u know.. its funny how things can be.. i mean.. things really came to perspective today.. for some reason..
its a game isnt it.. some kind of weird twisted joke or game.. some contest.. urgh.. fuck.. well.. i guess i can only blame myself for being so stupid to fall for it and believe it.. well.. no more..
