so ive got the whole sesason of heroes. and ive been watching it non stop since last night. 4 more episodes left! and if you haven't watched it. you should. its a really really really good show. and it made me think a lot. won't it be cool if we had some kind of extraordinary abilities. just anything at all. make our life a little easier. or maybe just make us feel special and not so normal and average. and destiny. whats our destiny? everyones destined to do something. but what? and when? and how? its like, we were born on this earth to do something. and we have to find out what it is. we all wanna do something great, something special. we all want to leave our mark when we're gone. we want people to remember us for the things we did. and lastly, if the whole world exploded tomorrow, would it be that bad? if one of us just died tmr, would it make a difference? would people remember us?
anna asked me yesterday "do you ever wish you were someone else?". and you know. i do. all the time. whether its someone famous, someone talented, someone fictional like a comic book hero or sometimes, someone so normal and yet has something that you could never have. and sometimes you wished you were one of your friends, or someone really close to you but somehow feel a little envious of. maybe he/she has something you really really want. or maybe he/she possesses qualities or talents that you lack. or maybe you're just jealous of everything about him/her. jealousy is a really really ugly thing.
you know in life, there are those really rare moments where you're given a second chance because you screwed up the first time around. we should consider ourselves lucky that we even get another oppurtunity to redeem ourselves. great moments come from great oppurtunities. and these chances dont come about really often. dont you think we should make use of these second chances. cause if we're so lucky to receive them in the first place, we should make full use of them. but isnt it kinda funny how some people are so lucky to receive these second chances and yet they decide to go mess it up. and then after that, they still get third and fourth chances after that. these people get so many god damn chances and they never treasure them. and the funny thing is, there are some of us who;d give anything to even get a first chance. life's unfair aint it
you have that chance. and yet you dont make use of it. you're either blind or fucking stupid. you had the chance. you let it slip. you fucking blew it. dumbass. and yet for some reason you've got that second chance. but it looks like you're not even making use of it. what the fuck is wrong with you. you're so fucking lucky. you dont realise whats it front of you. you dont realise how great something is. you take things for granted cause you expect 3rd 4th 5th and many more chances after that, and you probably will get it. lucky bastard. i'd do anything to have that first chance that you had.
epiphany. isn't it funny how you can get epiphanies at 3am in the morning. but hey. its true. i was reading something. you know how sometimes in life, you know something. and i guess you understand something. but the thing is, you don't want to believe it? like maybe if you dont believe it, it wont come true that kinda thing? people tell you things, and you see things, and you read shit, and yet you choose to be deaf/blind cause you dont want to believe it. you think to yourself, "hey, nothing wrong with being a little optimistic right" the glass is half full and shit like that. i mean, is there any harm in dreaming? or hoping or wishing? you had high hopes or something like that. and you became so dumb or stupid cause of it. but you know what. theres a diffrence between optimistic and just being fucking dumb and wishful thinking. i guess its time to wake up and face reality
