dilemma
sometimes we do things that at that moment of time, seemed like a really clever or smart thing to do. but after awhile, you look back at what you did, and you wonder to yourself, "what the hell was i thinking?"
right before the twins left, we wrote our new years resolutions for 2008. a lil late yes. but they do say better late than never. one of the things that my BB, PAL and I have always told ourselves, is that no matter what we do, or how we do it, we'd have no regrets whatsoever. no regrets in what we do. thats kinda like our motto.. well guys, im really sorry i let you guys down. it seems like i already broke a resolution. cause i regret it.. i really really do.. sighh.
today seemed like a really broken day.. a day that seemed really weird and really broken. like it wasnt complete and like something was missing. ok. im not really making any sense.
i always say people always leave. and yet it shocks me every single time someone leaves. whether its them literally leaving, or you guys drift or it seems like a person has changed and you barely recognize them anymore.
i feel like we've drifted. and its scary how we kinda drifted in such a short period of time with no warning whatsoever. maybe you dont feel that we've drifted, i guess everything seems fine to you. but its easier for me to notice than you. i dont know. i guess its really sad that we've drifted. but i cant really blame you i guess. i wish things would go back to the way they were before. but like, i guess thats not gonna happen. oh wells. as long as youre happy, i'm happy for you i dont know what you want. its like youre playing some game. and im the game. and im not gonna be the stupid one that just goes along.
