i am slowly but surely losing it. i am gonna go crazy soon if this goes on. i was on the brink of exhaustion after doing my graveyard shift and i gotta do another graveyard shift in 2 hours time. i think by 9am tomorrow, i will go nuts. but come on, 2-3 more days! i can do it! i can last without collapsing!
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i honestly find no pride and joy in helping out with this YOG. i guess its cause im one of those volunteered people. yes volunteered with the "ed". i dont have the pride and sense of accomplishement. maybe cuase ive been doing this for the past 17 months and im so sick and tired of it. i really dont get anything out of doing all this. a medal? nope. a prize? nope. a thank you? nope. no sense of gratitude at all. no one really appreciates the work ive done for the past 17 months. i earn about a $1.60 an hour. wow great pay huh. no overtime pay. no bonus. i havent had a free day in over a month. im losing track of the days cause honestly all the days feel like the same. saturdays sundays dont really matter if im stuck on shift. oh wells. at least its finally finally ending
