and with that one single decision, my world starts crumbling down. people make mistakes. people get angry. people vent their frustrations. people yell at their best friends. people get misunderstood. people realise their mistakes. people feel sorry. people apologise (profusely i might add). people want to go back to before. people understands their friend's mistakes. people get forgiven. people then move on. people forget it ever happened. people go back to being great friends. a fairy tale happy ending. but u know.. life is frikkin unfair eh. things dont always go as planned. in fact, they usually dont work out like they should. so in fact, screw the happy ending. this is what usually happens. people apologise. people don get forgiven. people don go back to before. people can no longer be friends. people cry. people get depressed. people try to move on but cant. people try to pretend it never happened but cant. people try to solve problem but cant. people, well, people screw up their own life because one stupid mistake. one stupid mistake can be erased and be solved. lets face it. some stupid mistakes cant. some stupid mistakes go too far that it cant be reversed ot taken back. one mistake, is all it takes, one STUPID IDIOTIC RETARDED FUCKING mistake, and boom, u lose one of the greatest friends u ever had. funny how it all plays out in the end.. fuck..

im sorry.. i know u don wan me to say it anymore.. but here i am saying it... im sorry k.. i donno wat else to say.. wy cant things go back to how they used to be.. great friends again.. this isnt the first spat we had.. so why is this any different.. im sorry. but yea, waiting for ur decision. just wanna let u know, whatever u decide to do or watever ur answer may be, i'll support it 100%.. sorry.. i swear i didnt mean it.. u know me so well.. wy wont u believe me.. sorry..

8 hours at my new house.. either painting vacuuming or mopping.. where's the justice in the world.. did nth else the whole day.. you know who you are: im sorry.. i really didnt mean it.. im so sorry.. i.. i.. i donno wat to say.. donno..

woke up at 3:30 to watch the liverpool vs real betis match.. no goals but pretty exciting.. poor peter crouch.. 10 frikkin shots and still no goals.. unlucky.. anyways.. had drum lesson at 1:30 then went for tuition.. wah.. tuition was ermm.. well.. funny in a way.. haha.. coke.. coke lime.. carbon. yup.. den went for hockey only to find out it was cancelled because of a some f**king idiotic figure skating shit.. wah lau.. f**k sia.. i frikkin hate figure skaters.. they just take up ice time la.. like WTF... aiya. yea.. den went paragon.. bought furnitur then went to eat.. then, as i was walking.. someone yelled " marcus eng!!".. holy crap sia.. scared the shit out of me la.. then i looked up. haha.. charmaine kwee!! lol... crazy girl.. scared me until liddat.. wah lau.. and nooo.. she wasnt wif her fish boy.. haha.. wait till i catch them together.. haha. ok.. ermm.. thats abt it i guess.. erm, oh yea. sorry for tat angry outburst yesterday.. guess i went overboard eh.. sorry.. yup.. no red words today.. :) :)

went to school.. had to perform one of the ten commandments.. "thou shall not worship idols".. was conned into doing it.. had to worship kristi... frikkin embarassing.. one of the stupidest things i've ever done.. watched o.c. season 1 with shunyi, andrew and fathi.. i mean kathi.. then took class photo.. aft tat, went holland v wif pocky and mingrong.. went to coffeebean then delifranc.. met up wif calvin and eileen..played hockey.. lsat day of school tomorrow.. speech night.. watever.. in case u dont know, f**king pissed now..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE KWEE!!!!! haha.. happy sweet 16.. hav a wonderful year ahead k.. haha.. anyways.. today was like ermm.. damn boring.. watched that damn boring movie in english again.. den got free periods in add maths so played badminton and lazed in the hall.. then was supposed to go for speech night rehearsal but i decided to screw rehearsal and went to canteen.. ponned chem too.,. gave excuse that i was doing rehearsal.. then just sat in canteen and had a good conversation with pocky.. yea.. chatted abt sth.. yup.. poor guy.. really pity him.. sigh.. sad.. then lit also free priod so just did nth.. went to hall where like kathi, kristi, jonHo, nic, debbie, and some year fives were watching lost on my laptop.. haha.. damn funny la.. debbie, kristi and kathi were like freaking out when it got to the scary part.. and they were laughing lik madwomen when they saw the fat guy rushing to catch his flight.. haha.. kk.. anyways.. aft sch, went to paragon to meet charmaine to celebrate her bday.. had tea.. haha.. den i came home and here i am.. i just had an epiphany!!!! i realised something really really important.. kk.. better go write it down.. 2 more days of school

last night and today were like damn damn sucky.. i mean.. simply horrible.. oh yea.. first things first.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA HO!!!! yup... haha.. hope u see this.. have a wondrful birthday and wonderful year ahead and blah blah blah.. all that good stuff and all.. haha.. yup.. tomorrow is someone else's birthday.. so i'll wish that person tomorrow.. haha.. anyways,., back to my sucky last 24 hours.. so i played hockey.. and we f**king lost 5-2.. wah lau.. shit sia.. our first lost of th season.. AAARGH!!! damn pissed la... anyways.. school was damn boring as usual.. and to make matters worst, a certain someone in sch got damn pissed at me for no reason la.. like WTF!!!! i didnt do anything la.. WTF!!! AARGH!! u got me sooo damn pissed just now la.. asked u wy u were angry and don even wanna tell me why.. and like.. wat the heck has been wrong with u the last 2 days.. don even wanna tell me anything anymore.. at least tell me and i'll help u la...like last time.. and don give me "my business,is none of your business " shit k.. we're like so good friends rite.. u urself said we tell each other secrets la.. then ur like yelling and scolding me for no reasone.. don even wanna tell me why.. "nth la..nth la.. none or ur business.. i angry is my business rite".. but u angry at me wat.. so of course my business la.. kao eh.. and u tell me u were always like this.. lik WTF la.. bullshit k.. u were never like this.. AARGH!! i really donno wat the heck.. u know rite.. ever since u met... our friendship has gone down the drain..always fighting and shit.. i really donno wat to do anymore.. watever. screw this shit.. F*CK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAARRGHHHHHHHH!!! F**KING PISSED now!!! hope tomorrow is a better day.. doubt it will unless i solve this shit.. sigh

wow.. third post in 3 days.. must be a new record.. anyways.. today was an up and down day.. kinda weird actually.. so i reached sch and played fm... and then andrew hill came... i saw him... and started laughing my ass off.. holy crap.. he dyd his hair like frikkin light brown la.. it was actually closer to red.. OMG!!!! it was frikkin hilarious la.. i mean.. he looked damn funny.. his hair was so light, and his eyebrows were dark.. total mismatch.. he lookd like a retard..haha.. sorry dude.. everyone was making fun of him la.. even the teachers.. physics teacher said he was setting a bad example. lol. lit teacher was damn shocked.. and history teacher was like " andrew!!! take off the wig!!" HAHAHAHAHAH!!! OMG!! kk.. enough abt andrew's ugly hair.. so i yup.. studied smoe chapter ant number sequences in add maths.. real boring.. how many combinations of heads and tails would u get if u flipped a coin 3 times... like who the hell cares.. total snooze fest.. then we watched this really boring movie in english called "emperors' club" or sth.. damn stupid and boring.. though it was funny when like there was this damn lame joke on the movie and then kathi started laughing like siao and all... then we all like stared at her cand started laughing like siao too.. not at the joke but cause she was damn funny.. laughing like a madwoman for no reason.. damn crazy la she.. haha.. no offence.. lol.. anyways, she doesnt read my blog.. ok.. but i just watched the last episode of "lost".. OMG!!! wat a damn idiotic ending la.. total cliffhanger.. AARGH!!! but it is a damn nice series.. so e-maths and history was damn lame.. and physics did some lame experiment.. den aft tat went to hall to talk to pocky abt sth.. and came home.. i guess tats abt it.. so i guess it would have been an ok da.. except tat someone was like damn pissed at me for no reason la.. siao.. still don wanna tell me wat i did.. wy.. wat the heck did i do.. aargh.. wy won u telll me anything anymore.. sigh.. watever.. hockey match later.. THANK GOD!! like finallly... so ya.. adios..

soo... here i am blogging again.. i think im gonna start blogging more often.. maybe.. so today was a really tiring day.. i slept at 3 last night aft watching the england-argentina friendly.. damn exciting match sia.. up and down action.. 3-2 england win.. wah. worth staying up for. not like last week manu-chelsea game.. anyways.. yup.. owen wif a late winner.. so i woke up at 9 this morning and ate breakfast and read newspapers.. den i went back to my room and lied down.. and i fell asleep.. woke up at 12+ den played ps2.. den at abt 3 we went to our new house to clean it up.. wah kao.. its like filthy sia.. damn dusty.. so spent 3 hours mopping and plastering the wall.. shit.. bloody tiring.. den halfway.. i lay on the floor and fell asleep again..wah shit.. den went home eeat dinner.. played more ps2.. so i was juz abt to bathe and was rading on my bed when i fell asleep again!!! shit sia.. damn tired.. must be cause whole of last week never sleep enough.. watching lost too much la.. haha.. damn nice show.. all th fatigue is catching up wif me.. hmm.. yup.. nth else to say liao.. sooo depressed!!! AARGH!!!

so i have blogged in awhile..been real busy and lazy.. so a lot has happened over the past week or so but too lzy to type out.. went to penang for 3 days.. got my results back.. got my report card back.. went to 2j chalet.. yup.. had lotsa fun at the chalet... caught up wif all my old pals from 1j.. wen skating wif amanda and ben... ate.. wtched soccer highlites and barbequed food.. yup.. i loved the bbqed marshmallows.. i created BUTTERED MARSHMALLOWS... it tasted kinda weird though but haha.. i forced dj and joey to eat them.. they complained of food poisoning..lol.
next day went to sch.. i realized tat i need not hav gone la cause reprt cards haven come out yet but watever.. tuesday was like the worst day of sch ever.. everyone in sch was so f**king depressed la.. tried to cheer em up to no avail.. wah lau.. gan ning nia.. kao.. i also became depressed la... f**k sia,, cause rite.. oh wait. this is not the place to talk abt it.. ask me and i'll tell u.. maybe.. ok.. so yea.. tuesday sucked a lot.. den wednesday came and got report card back.. wah lau.. cant stand wat the teachers said abt me... irritating like hell la.. nvm.. watever. screw em.. thursday was a holiday so stayed home and rotted.. went for hockey practics which was a disaster.. den friday..well... kinda sucky day as well.. was damn pissed at e end of the day... yea.. i'll tell u abt it if u ask me..maybe..haha.. k..today went out wif charmaine and mingrong den ended up wif iekka joe and uwei.. long long complicated story.. yea.. it was a good day until..well.. i'll tell u if u ask me.. maybe.. so yea..anyways..the last 2 months have been like hell for me., yup. the worst 2 months of my life.. i'll tell u abt it if u ask me..maybe.. but yea.. wah lau.. i realised sth. people don believe me anymore...like wat the f**k.. i know i joke around and lie often but don people realise when im actually serious... take the last few days for instance... keep telling this perwson im serious and all but nooooo...the person doesnt belive... only says believes me aft i get angry and when tat person prolly is sympathetiv or sth.. like wah lau.. i keep telling u im serious so i gotta be serious rite.. kao. still don believe me.. think im joking or sth.. sigh.. no one ever believes me anymore... AARGH!! damn my lying and my joking around.. f**k it... so since the last 2 months have been hell for me.. well. the last few days seemed like i met the devil and he was condeming me.. sigh...

Marcus Eng

10 March 1990
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