i got this feeling.. u know the feeling.. like when u do something.. like at the time when u do it, it seems like the smart thing to do and like all your instincts tell you to do it and theres really nothing holding you back. And then after you do it, it seemed so really retarded cause nothing good came out of it.. Then after awhile, when it seems that the decision to go through with it doesnt really seem to matter anymore, it then comes to bite you in the ass.,. yeah well.. i got that feeling.. oh dear lord i made a huge mistake.. oh my god im such an idiot.. im sorry.. i really am.. if i knew it'd turn out the way it did, i wouldnt have done it.. im so sorry!! sigghhh.. i really didnt mean to be such an asshole.. didnt mean to hurt u.. urgh.. sorry? if i could rewind the clock i would, and change everything i could.
was talking to stephen just now.. was telling how i wanted to do sth to get back at someone and he was like "dont.. cause if u do, you're just as bad as they are. if u cant join em, beat em." HAHA!! wth la.. suddenly he has a concsience.. and andrew;s the one helping me plot revenge!! HAHA!!
love aint beautiful, it's painful
