u know when life treats u unfairly.. like it deals u an unfair hand.. what do you do? its like everything u do is wrong and like everything's your fault when maybe both parties were to blame.. a simple thing can blow up into something huge and like nothing you do ever seems right to some people.. i just dont get it.. i mean.. i thought life was going good for ahwile.. really nothing was wrong.. and like all of a sudden.. BOOM! life seems like a bitch.. and theres nothing to die for.. i hate it.. and by saying this, i may get struck by lightning but fuck it.. i hate life... if i die tmr, i really wouldnt care cause theres seriously nth to live for and like it'd seems a better alternative then continuing on with my life.. selfish and stupid i know but hey.. i couldnt care less.. urghh
god i feel emo today.. and yesterday.. but it just suddenly hit me in a wave/. god.. i feel sad and pissed at the same time... i just feel like fucking punching someone or something.. its like one moment i was on the bus like normal and the next moment i just felt like strangling the living daylights out of someone.. urgh.. sorry stephen for taking it out on u.. like seriously its not ur fault and theres really nth u can do.. yeah.. sorry.. but u read it. put urself in my shoes.. imagine how it;d feel like to read that... now multiply how it feels by a hundred.. thats how i feel.. fuck la.. its days like these that make me hate things so bad.. urghh.. sorry.. i dont know what else to say.. cause i guess there really is nth to say.. fuck it.. fuck life.. fuck everything... and now ive got the fucking clue.. great just great.. can my day get any better
i dont know if ur reading this.. but like.. i dont know what to do and all.. i mean.. i really want things to go back to how they were. if only u'd give me a chance.. please.. im sorry.. but like.. put urself in my shoes and imagine how i feel.. i mean.. i really wanna go back to before.. if thats possible.. i donno.. sigh.. guess its up to u.. the balls in your court. sighh
