Random qoutes to think about (all from one tree hill) John F Kennedy once said "the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must, in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures, and that is the basis of all morality."
i did what i had to, yeah.. in spite of the consequences and dangers and etc, i did it, i cant change that fact.. i did it.. and im sorry "I thought I knew you. But I guess it's easier to see what we want...then look for the truth. You think you know me but you don't, and that means you don't know what I can do.... I may not always know what I am doing, but I'll try to make things better. And when I make a mistake, I promise I'll ask for your help. I can't do this alone, but if you'll take a chance on me, we can do great things together. I promise if you believe in me, I'll find the courage to reach for your every dream"
you know now.. its like i dont even know you anymore and i hate it.. i do.. i really do. i dont know whats gonna happen. read this.. and all of it. take a chance on me? love is a gamble, would you roll the dice with me? "when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you're still alive. because you are, and that pain you feel...thats life. the confusion and fear, thats there to remind that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for "
i dont know what to say about this one.. yeah. it hurts but pain reminds you that you're alive. but too much pain. well, no one can take that can they? "listen to your head and follow your heart."
well.. i listened and followed my heart.. maybe i should've used my head. "don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble, fall, 'cause most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most"
i did it.. but the thing that scared me the most is whats happening now "Stepping up. It's a simple concept. It basically means to rise above yourself; to do a little more, to show you something special.Life's funny sometimes; can push pretty hard like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back, like when your best friend and your boyfriend leave you alone, like when you pull the trigger or light the flame and you can't take it back. Like I said, in sports they call this 'stepping up'. In life, I call it 'pushing back"
maybe its time for both if us to step up "Every once in a while, people step up they rise above themselves sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of children, in the bars of the song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back."
"You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they're happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it."
maybe i took it for granted.. our friendship. and yeah. taken away and now i miss it sooo much.. i do miss it.. and i realise i do need it. and yes, i do love it. and this one really means something.. its for you."You ever wake up from a really good dream, try to get back to sleep? Or you got the flu, and you promise yourself that you’ll appreciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it? That’s the way I feel. I just want things to go back to the way they were. "
yeah.. if i had one wish now, i'd wish for things to be the way they were.. go back to before. you know.. i have no idea why i just did this.. i just felt like it. and u say im exageratingg all of this. but in my opinion, im not.. i promise im not exagerating. this is how i feel. and maybe u wont accept that. maybe u think im seeking attention again.. but im not.. i swear.. i call it how it is. we both have different views of things. i know its hard for u. but its not easy for me too k.. i mean, put yourself in my shoes.. see things from my view.. it aint peaches and cream.. i dont know whats gonna happen.. i really dont.. im clueless now.. im at my wits end. i hate what we've become.. i guess its my fault. i regret doing it. and not a day goes by without me beating myself up over it. so yeah.. i donno. sighhh.. the balls in your court now.. and this is not me seeking attention -_-
