random thoughts for today
boring boring boringschool was sooo boring and a total waste of time.. i think i shouldnt have even went to school.. i got nothing done and accomplished nothing at all.. sighhh..
suckytoday was a pretty sucky day.. it just.. ermm.. SUCKED!! it was depressing and retarted and just got me all pissed off.. urghhh..
mistakespeople make mistakes every single day.. big or small. they do affect things.. mistakes are common.. and the thing is.. u regret it.. but u cant turn back the clock.. u cant erase the things u did.. no matter how much u try, u did it. u made a mistake.. theres nothing u can do.. you just try your best to fix things and pray to god it works..
Anger: good or badi got really pissed today.. for a million different reasons.. it was just an angry day.., but i guess one of the things is that its like.. i feel sad.. but i hate being sad.. so my sadness turns to anger.. so i dont know if its a bad thing or not.. but im just really pissed at myself right now.. cause like im a frikking idiot.. and i jsut want to punch the fucking wall in..
apologeticim sorry.. for a lot of reasons.. and to a lot of people.. sorry to you cause i made a total mess of things and it just sucks now whats happening and its my fault.. and sorry to you cause you're caught in the middle of it all and i know you dont know what to do and im sorry for putting you there in the first place.. and im sorry to you and you cause i blamed you guys for stuff.. and like i was so unreasonable. cause it was not you guys'fault at all. and i guess i didnt wanna blame myself so i had to blame someone to feel better.. and im sorry.
you know how much today sucked? a lot.. it was weird and shit.. and we didnt talk and like i just felt u didnt even wanna talk to me and shit.. like u couldnt even look me in the eyes.. and it hurts so bad cause i just want it to be like before.. and i know its my fault.. cause i was so fucking stupid to have done it.. i was selfish and didnt think if how it might affect you or other people.. please. lets go back to before.. yes its hard. but we;ve been good friends too long for it to be this way.
