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Tuesday, October 10, 2006 @ 9:38 PM

so i promised myself i would never fall back into that hole. and yet i find myself getting sucked back in.. like a vacuum and im the speck of dust..

so today i wasnt thinking real straight.. maybe my heart was thinking for me.. cause they say your brain tells you the right thing to do, your heart tells you what you really want. hmm. but like today.. i guess lapse of concentration... but fuck..

i slipped and i was oh so close to falling back into that hole but i think just in the nick of time i grabbed hold of something and hauled myself back to my feet.. the simple thing to do is to stay away from that hole but i cant.. and like i donno.. am i gonna fall in? am i even out of that hole? or am already barely holding on?

sorry ASSWIPE for being an asshole lately!! (:

you know whats funny? when people are fucking hypocrites.. they scold you for something and the next thing you know they;re the ones doing it..

you know.. it may not seem like it but it hurts when people say things like that.. im sorry if thats who i am and those are the kind of things i do. i donno why people just cant accept the fact that thats the kind of person i am.. wait.. actually people have accepted it.. and they're fine with it.. so idont understand why you guy dont understnad. of all people its you guys.. you know, everytime u guys go off on me for the same ol reason, it hurts.. you guys don realise it.. but it does.. and you think its funny when you say it but its actually not.. i mean seriously, think abt it.. you guys are scolding me for being myself and are basically telling me to not be myself and all. and to be someone else.. sigh.. but yeah.. it hurts when u guys say it you know.. u probably dont realise cause ive never said anything abt it before.. but yeah.. whatever.. if u want to continue saying it and u really want me to do as you guys say.. ill try. ill try

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