29th of december. 54 hours left in 2006.. hip hip hurray.. i seriously cant wait for 2007.. i mean. 2006 was plain crap.. like fuck 2006. lol. but surprisingly, it passed by really really quickly. like it was new year and chinese new year. and my brithday. and BOOM! malaysia tournament, mid years than suddenly its prelims and than IGCSE! shit. and like all of a suden FREEDOM!! haha. but then BOOM! december 29.. schools in 5 days. haha. CANT WAIT!! yes yes. i really do wanna go back to school. i liked my school routine better than my holiday one. haha. yup. well. happy new year to everyone out there. time to start making new years resolutions and then trrying to actually keep them.. these are my last years one. i actally kept them. well. some. lol
1) be more obedient to my parents.... ermm.. shit. don think i accomplished that
2)stop lying so much.. didnt really stop.
4) stop making fun of people so much.. did i cut down?
5) pay attention i class.. taking igcse shit at the end of e year so gotta start pulling my socks up now.. i paid attention during tuition. does that count?
6) last but not least.. im gonna either blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah OR crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap.. yup.. either one of those.. i swear i'll do either by e end of the year.. HAHA. THIS ONE I KEPT!! YAY ME

so i know i did this thing before. the 10 things abt ppl. dont write your name down. yeah. been there done that. but i wanna do it all over. things have changed. in like the past donno how long.

to you 1) haha. i dont know what to say abt you without making it obvious who its to. lol. well. ermm. 2007 is coming. ok. lame. like you! lol. so thanks. for everything. for always being there for me. and like i know i can always count on you no matter what. and that like a year from now, we'll still be having our oh so random and stupid conversations about how our lives will be like 20 years from now. you've made 2006 really great you know. like, it'd be sooooo weird without you. glad you're always there. like you're such a big influence and all. eh. lemme ask you something. if you had 10 million dollars, would you give me 5? (:

2) you know. i just realised something. you know me damn well. damn damn well. haha. like of everyone i know. you are probably one of the few who do know me so damn well. like, if faced with a decision, you'd know what i choose. haha. so 2006 is over huh. so like. its been a fun year huh. haha. thanks man. for everything. seriously. thanks. so for some reason. we alwayts have this deep deep conversation on msn. lol. and you said you can tell me everything. its true. you can count on me

3) well. i for one dont really like to.. crap. i dont know the word for it. ok. i dont really show my appreciation much. but i wanan say thanks to you. cause. i treat u like crap sometimes. and you dont really mind. and you like go out of the way to like solve my problems. i really appreciate. yeah yeah yeah. i can be nice and appreciative sometimes la. lol. you know the card? its all truth man.

4) omg!!! IM GONNA MISS YOU!! URGHH!! dude!! i seriously am gonna miss you la. we all are. haha. its been a great year huh. all the fun and laughter. all the crap and nonsense. LOL! never met anyone like you. and thats a compliment! thanks dude. youradvice was great! hope to see you soon

5)oh fuck. i cant believe im gonn say this but.. urgh. i am gonna miss you. hahaha. weird as it may sound, i've really appreciated your friendship over the year or so. yeah yeah. like i donno. its weird. i have no idea what to say la. haha. but i am gonna miss you. like i trust you, and i could tell you everyhing. and dear lord you listened. haha. and hell.u even gave me good advice. most unlikely source. i'll never forget "no balls ar" lol. i still think its your fault! LOL

6) so like over the year. we've talked more and more /. and like. our conversations are so random. like we could be talking abt donno donno what and next thing we're talking abt sth totallu opposite. but thanks. for hearing me out. and like. just listening. thanks. bring on 2007 huh. i still have to hear your crazy story! haha

7) hello you!! hahaha. OMG! i cant believe how close we are now! like we can tell each other everything and all. haha. ahhh.. like last year. and even beginning of this year. its like we barely talked much. and now. how different it is huh. i mean. look at us now!! hahaha! i really am soooo glad we're so close now. and like how we're such damn good friends and all!! i love our EARLY morning conversations. and how you're so happy and high nowadays. im glad for you. i really am. cause you for one deserve the happines. stay happy k!! we cant have like 0% happy!!

8) we hardly see each other but everytime i do something important. you're one of the first few people i turn to. yes. my life is a mess. and yes. i know im in over my head sometimes. hahaa. wait for that novel!!

9) one word can describe your year. DRAMA!! you definately had your fair share of drama and then some. but who was it who said life would be too boring without drama. haha. well. 2006 is almot gone. and i cant believe how it turned out huh. i mean. who would've thought we'd be like so close now.. haha.. remember. EHHHH!! BESTFRIENDDDDDD!! HAHAHA!! so yeah. 2006. there was smiles and laughs. frowns and tears. but never ever a dull moment huh. well. i really do hope you have a greate 2007. and u finally either get ______ or like move on and all.. cause after the year you just went through, you're the one that really needs some long lasting happiness and stuff.. haha.

10) well well well. finally at number 10!! i donno if i dread this.or glad that i somehow manage to get this off my chest in a way. so like ermm. thanks. for fucking up 2006. cant u thnk of anyone. besides yourself for once in a lifetime.. liek the world doesnt fucking revolve around you. damn self centred. attention seeking. i could go on and on. urgh. u just piss me off. only nice when you need something done. its like im being used. urgh. pissing me off just talking about you. okok. too harsh. sorry. so in a way. 2006 would've been damn different without you. but like i donno. good different i guess. ok. this is gonna be harsh but its the truth. there really were times when like you really jhust spoiled my day. or week. i mean. u ccan just really ruin my perfectly good mood. URGH! like u can turn my smile into a frown with just a single sms and all. bleah. i hate it la.. sometimes i really wish someone could just slap you and make you realise all the awful crap you do and see what kind of person you really are. and like. you know. you make such an impact on me. and trsut me, not the good kind. i really wanna jsut ask you to fuck off. but like i cant i guess. sighhh. i really dont wanna fo through 2007 with you. but not really much of a choice. i wish you'd change. you ruined my holidays. i hope you know that. after igcse was supposed to be freedom and all fun and laughter. but you ruined it. you ruined it. fake friends are like shadows. always there next to you when its all bright and sunny. but never there when things start to get dark and gloomy. you're the biggest shadow ever

11) of all the people i know. you're probably the only one who can cheer me up and make me smile when im in the worst of moods and when no one else can. and also you're the only one who can totally just mess up my mood and piss me off when im in a real good mood and no one else could ruin it. well. i donno what 2007 has in store. but like. less of 2006 maybe. why cant we just be normal friends. you know. cheer each other up when one of us is sad. be happy in the good times and all. sometimes its like i feel that you're like the queen or liek i can only talk to you and no one else. and like. we dont talk for awhile. and suddenly its my fault. and sometimes. i just feel like the only reason you come to me is cause theres no one else. like im ur last resort. like when all ur friends are ok with you. or when you have that someone special, i dont exist anymore.

felize navidad.
i'm tired..actually tired is an understatement. im bushed. exhausted.. omg. christmas is one tiring holiday. christmas party last night with cousins uncles aunts godparents. well.. christmas party with whole family. haha. setting up was already damn energy sapping la. pack my room. pack my brothers room. vacuum floor. wrap presents. help start up barbeque fire. omg. like 3 hours before the party and im like already working like mad. then like during the party had to help barbeque food and clean up after the party. gosh. never worked that hard before. but hte party was alright. bonded with my cousins. well. we're already like damn bonded la. haha. went to the park to drink. haha. scandalous! hung out and shit. it was good! yup. christmas today. didnt get as much sleep as needed. went to church. then lunch at black angus. omg. lunch there made me miss the US and all my friends there so much ): after lunch went to PS to exchange presents with ongs!! OMG!!! I LOVE THEIR PRESENT DAMN MUCH!! OMG OMG OMG!! I LOVE IT!!! (: (: (: (: (: (: (: hahhaha.. im like gonna hang it up somewhere!! then went to meet char-maine at lido to pass her present. hahaa. i hope u liked it!! (: cause she passed me my present few days back. haha. OMG!! I LOVED THAT PRESENT TOO!! OMG! how'd you know what to put on it! haha. damn cute la!! love you sis!!!

well. i was wrong. this years christmas wasnt that bad actually.. haha. yeah la kathi. i know you want to say " I TOLD YOU SO!" haha. yup. i had fun. and the tons of great presents i got didnt hurt too. haha. omg,. so many presents! and i love them all!!

thanks to everyone who made christmas 2006 such a great one. from charmaine stephen twins to all my uncles and aunts and of course my parents and brother and my cousins and well. just to everyone who wished me a merry christmas and who made it all so much better this year! (:

merry christmas guys!! and a happy new year!!

christmas eve.. which means one day closer for christmas to finally be over.. and for like all the christmas songs to stop playing. went christmas shopping today.. OMG!! i spent $150.. holy shit. you guys better appreciate your presents. haha. flat broke now. as in literally no money in my. wallet. no even enough to pay for bus fare la.. urghh. its 3 am now. i did 4 christmas cards. one left. who knew christmas cards could take so long to do. well. im really puring my heart into these cards. haha. long long cards. and all truthful. no lies. from the bottom of my heart. haha. got a christmas present today. THANKS!! you know who you are! its really really nice. and u better like what i got you. haha. and your card was damn touching la.. haha. AWWWWW! so yeah. christmas shopping today. walked up and down orchard road. who knew shopping for gifts could be so tedious, difficuly, turing and making me thirsty all in one. lol. but yeah managed to get everything. thank god. met kathi and kristi for awhile at taka. haha. housework at home. soccer at night. gift wrapping, writing cards and hilarious phone conversations with my pal took up the rest of the day. serious. i left home at 10:45. got home at 6:30.minus transportation time, thats almost 6 hours of walking shopping walking shopping waiting.. omg. how do they do this. lol. and its like shopping for 5 ppl can take so long. who knew. lol. im bored. christmas party tmr. URGH! means massive cleaning up after that. oh well. cant say that this years christmas is gonna be a total suckfest like last year. i get presents this year! haha. cant wait. im genuinely excited la. hahha. really.. damn it. the suspense is killing me!

scandalous!!

You're the bullet that got closest to my heart.

i love the lostprophets!!

Lostprophets - New Transmission



Take, take, take, all my time, all my company
Take everything from me
Fake, fake, fake all these things that you say to me
Nothing that I want to believe
I think the time has come to set it straight
I need to change this frequency'
Cause everyone just says the same old thing to me

You're shattered crown, it drags me down'
Cause there's no sun when you're around
Your righteous lies, you slip and slide
Now I want you to just
(Fade out)
Static in my stereo man
(Fade out)
A new transmission's calling, here we go!

non-stop rain cascades on my window, making loud splashes that keep me from thinking and just adds to my really depressed state of mind. damn the monsoon season. fuck the rain. when's the sun coming out? sick of rain. sick of being in a bad mood. sick of this, sick of that.. omfg. i need the sun to come out. i need to be in a better mood. i need someone to cheer me up. i need the ghost of christmas future to come and show me that future christmas' wont suck like the last few have. URGH!! i hate december. i hate the holidays. i hate this. i hate that. and i HATE christmas. christmas can kiss my ass. last year's christmas can go eat shit. 2 year's ago christmas can suck my balls and just die die die and just be buried in my memories so i'll never remember it ever again. i need to sleep. i need to smile. i need to be in a better mood. i need to make a decision. i shouldnt be staying up to watch liverpool vs arsenal at 3:45 am. i shouldnt be in such a bad mood all the time.. i shouldnt be frowning. i shouldnt be procrastinating and jsut continue this facade. BLEAH. damn you christmas. damn you.

jonho and the twins came over today. made this really nice collage for daryl
then went to send daryl off at the airport. SIGH!! damn sad la.. we'll miss you dude.

its 5am on monday.. i started watching this one tree hill episode at 2:30 on youtube.. and ive yet to finish 2 mins of it.. LOL. been talking to my pal on the phone for the past 2 hours.. lol. i think its our longest phone conversation ever. heck. i think its my longest phone conversation with anyone. lol. telling me stories and shit.. yes.. drama makes the world go round right pal. LOL. anyways. don think im gonna finish my episode.. damn late. or damn early. whichever way u think of it. crap. i finished my episode. and its 6+am now.. omg.. i think i hear my maid waking up. ok. time to sleep. -_-

"how now brown cow?"
"wham bam thank you maam"

Take, take, take, all my time, all my company
Take everything from me
Fake, fake, fake all these things that you say to me
Nothing that I want to believe
I think the time has come to set it straight
I need to change this frequency'
Cause everyone just says the same old thing to me

You're shattered crown, it drags me down'
Cause there's no sun when you're around
Your righteous lies, you slip and slide
Now I want you to just
(Fade out)
Static in my stereo man
(Fade out)
A new transmission's calling, here we go!

so like im really really bored.. urgh.. so yeah.. hence this.

Instructions: Put your favorite music player on shuffle (Party Shuffle on iTunes) and fill in the names of the songs in the order they show up.

How will you die: Miss Murder-AFI (crap. i got killed by some chick)
At my wedding they'll play: Hate, I really dont like you- Plain white T's (HAHAHA. fucked up marriage)
My family is described by the song:The Mixed tape- Jack's Manequin
This song describes my grandparents: Teenagers - my chemical romance (young at heart maybe. lol)
What makes me happy is: Build God then we'll talk (Panic! at the disco)
When I'm drunk I say: Sweetness- jimmy eat world (i do say "sweetness" a lot)
Next time I'm in front of a crowd, I'll say: To Be Loved- Papa Roach
To cheer myself up I: Dead!- my chemical romance (lol.. wtf)
My parents are like the song: Cant stop, gotta date with hate- lostprophets
I'll have a good day if I can just hear: Cant catch tomorrow,good shoes wont save you this time-lostprophets
My deepest secret is: How to save a life- The Fray (i'm a hero!!)
My theme song: If i told you this was killing me- juliana theory (hmmmm)
At my funeral they'll play: Beautiful love- The Afters (what kind of funeral is this)
My birth was like: A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"-fall out boy
My ultimate song for dancing is: sugar we're going down- fall out boy
The story of my life is: dance dance- fall out boy
My best friend is like:She wants to be me-busted (LOL!!!)
My make-out song is: But it's better if you do- panic! at the disco
This song will be playing when I meet the love of my life: All that i've got- the used (awwww)
What I did last night was: Holiday- Green day (well it is the holidays)
The best thing about me is:Mr Brightside- The killers
When I'm in the shower, I sing: Going away to college- blink 182
My message to the world has always been: A town called hypocrisy- lostprophets
If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: over my head- the fray (haha)
My friends see me as: Always love- Nada surf (HAHAHHA. yeah right)
Will I ever have kids: Obviously- Mcfly (hahaha.)
Right now, I feel: chasing cars- snowpatrol
My innermost desire is: Stacy's mom- fountains of wayne (HAHAHA..)
Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: i'll be there for you- bon jovi (awwwww)
Behind my back, my friends think I'm: bittersweet symphony- the verve

anyways. that aside... here's my christmas list.. STEPHEN!! pay attention. LOL. jkjk

1. PS3- unrealistic i know
2. money- who doesnt want money?
3. bag- i always wanted a new bag.. but i really never ever looked for one
4. for this year's christmas to not suck
5. for my handphone not to take 5 mins to send one lousy sms
6. sophia bush poster!!!!!!
7. answers
8. hockey skates
9. to do well for igcse- thats kinda late huh
10. to spend new years with my good friends and all - so corny. haha
11. surprise me
12. anything really.. i dont expect much anymore. i dont really like christmas. i never really understood whats so merry about christmas anyways

met up with amanda on wednesday.. watched eragon and ate at ben and jerries.. sat and talked and talked and talked.. it was good to catch up (: .. so nat and priss came over yesterday for movie marathon.. FINALLY!! haha.. after like soooo long.. we rented 9 movies.. we've watched benchwarmers, match point, some french movie, lady in the water and the butterfly effect.. 4 movies left.. we're gonna burn midnight oil. HAHAHA.. we've been eating junk food.. drinking alchohol and sleeping and talking crap.. haha. one big dysfunctional family.. (: haha. ENG'S!!

"a butterfly beating its wings in china can start a typhoon halfway across the world"
- chaos theory

i miss you!! come back soon!! (:

half the holidays are over.. ermm.. hurray? and christmas is coming. crap.. i hate christmas.. movie marathon thursday/ YAY!! finally.. so highlights of the past week few weeks..

wached deja vu yesterday.. it was like a thought provoking movie. haha. lots of thinking.uh huh.. went to borders... nic and jonho slept over.. we like played board games.. how cool are we.. and nic is officially double 0 zero.. LOL.. retarded.. lol. yeah

officially popped my vivo city cherry on friday.. haha.. damn the place is huge.. and you can like practically get everything there.. seriously.. EVERYTHING!! its that big with that many stores.

watched resident evil 1 and 2.. i just want to say how hot milla jovovich is.. not as hot as sophia bush.. but still VERY hot. its funny how she acts in all these action movies and look so hot fighting zombies with blood all over her.. haha.

i wanna turn back the clock!!!! ):

i had the funniest phone conversation at 1am the other day.. so i was telling the person abt. my dream of me moving away and stuff.
"omg!! dont move!!!! you mean.. wait nevermind"
me: "what.. i mean to much to you izit?"
anonymous"YEAH!!! what will i do without you?? i mean.. ____ is gone.. than like if u move.. theres like nothing left to live for"
"and like i'll be at the airport sending you off and i'll be sobbing my eyes out!"
HAHAHAHAHHAAHAH!!!! AWWWWWWW!! you know i'll miss you tons and tons too right.. hahaha.. but don worry.. im not moving la.. so there is something to live for!! LOL!! damn sweet la.. HAHAHAHA!! (:

do dreams tell the future? i hope not..

i watched 3 shows today.. and i learned sth from every show.. its funny how movies/tv shows can teach you life lessons..

i watched just like heaven.. this movie.. and like i learnt being a nice guy sucks sometimes.. and like you do all that crap for someone and in the end you get nothing.. like the person doesnt really care anymore or cant remember the shit you did.. wow. what a coincidence that i watched this movie today.. lol

then i watched one tree hill season 4.. episode 9.. omg.. its like the best episode ever.. and its soooooo sad.. and like. the moral behind it. every victory is bittersweet.. with the good comes the bad.. and there is a price to pay for everything you do.. and consequences are always right there no matter what. nothing is 100% good.. cause with good comes bad.. and most times the good comes and you're basking in all of it. and you enjoy yourself and you think you're all happy and shit.. and that makes it so much worse when the bad things start to happen. when you're in the middle of happiness.. it only hurts so much more..

i watched this movie.. pretty persuation.. and its like a satire of society.. and its like a really good movie.. and like.. you know what.. it touches on something ive been saying for awhile now.. nothing is ever what they seem.. and no one is ever who they seem to be. and you never know who your real friends and that there are fake friends out there who are using you and taking of advantage of you... its kinda freaky how the movie like touches on all these things ive been talking abt.. nothign is ever what they seem.. look past the facade cause the truth does hurt..
bleah.

anyway.. more pictures from prom and other random pics.

ipod charger pal!!

eng + ong square

kathi

lol andrew

3 muskateers (:

now aint this cute!! lol

i have no idea why this is on my computer. haha.

SCANDALOUS!! (:

so so so HOT!! sophia bush!!! (:

ahh.. more random thoughts..

fake friends are like shadows. They're right there next to you when its all bright and sunny but nowhere to be seen when its all dark and gloomy. Fake friends are only there for the ride. They get off when the good part's over. They watch you like they watch a movie. Right there during the good part and getting up to leave during the bad parts. Fake friends are only there cause they need something out of the so called "friendship".. They need your help, your advice or your shoulder to lean on. its sad really cause you cant count on them for their help, or their advice, or their shoulder to lean on. It's hard to tell your real friends from your fake friends.. cause they all seem so similar. so alike in the things they do. The only way you'll know is when you need help. who's there when the smoke clears. who's there to catch you when you fall. who's there to pick you up when you're down. and who's there to give you to give you that kick in the ass and tell you life goes on.. your real friends. the ones who are there for you no matter what, every single time. these are your genuine friends. most of us are lucky to have them. hold on to them. real tight. cause once you lose them, you might not get them back. everyone has fake friends. every single person. jsut that some of them dont know who the fake ones are.. to those people. i sincerely hope you dont ever find out. seriously. live the lie. your fake friends. casue you dont want to find out who they are. cause it hurts. it really does. and it does have such a huge impact on you. no matter who you are. what you say nad what you think. it does affect. maybe it makes you smarter.. maybe it makes you more vulnerable.. maybe its just leaves you questioning everything you have cause you just realised the one thing you thought was great was all fake.. welcome to my nightmare.

think about it.. whens the last time you actually called to talk? cause if i rmb.. it was never. cause every call was to ask for a favour or sth.. and when's the last time i could talk to you abt shit and you'd cheer me up. and you'd try your best and help me out. and you'd know the right things to say.. and no matter what you'd make sure i was fine.. well see. i did all those things for you and not once did you ever say thanks or even reciprocate.. its funny how i never turn to you anymore. cause i know. doesnt achieve anything. you dont cheer me up. you dont say the right things. you never ever try and help me.. see. everytime i talk to u abt my problems, you suddenly change the subjects and talk abt you and your problems and blah blah blah. once, fine. a second time, dont really matter. a third? its ok.. a fourth? ok maybe starting to get irritating.. but everytime. every fucking time.. now see. thats not really being a friend is it? think. whens the last time i told u my problems and you were the one who cheered me up and helped me out.. ermm.. never. never never never.. you know.. not being a real friend is one thing. ok so you're not a real friend.. whatever.. but then. you putting me through all your crap since ive known you. well. thats a totally different story.. ive been so patient all this while.. ive put up with all ur fucking nonsense.. and yeah. never once have i gotten a thank you from you.. its like im at your every beck and call.. patience wears thin darling.. i hope you''re not there when mine snaps.

sorry for the rant.. just cant take it anymore.. and yes kathi.. im a very very bitter boy.. hahaha. sorry la. cant help it.

any of you experiencing what i am? my sympathy, my condolences.. but hey. always remember. what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger (:

i miss you!! hurry come back!! (:

i'm really really bored.. god. holidays are so anti climatic.. i was so looking forward to hols after exams and here i am so bored with nth to do.. urgh. here's a random thought:

a smile is a facade we put on our faces just to make people think that we're fine. About a quarter of smiles are fake. deep down we're weeping and cryinf and pissed off. outside, we're smiling and laughing. why? cause we dont want to show people how vulnerable we actually are. we down want the people affecting us know how much they actually do have an impact on us. how they piss us off, make us cry, hurt us so badly or how they can make such a profound impact on us with the little things they do. smile. they're a facade. a fake front. a lie we make with our face to make people believe what we want them to believe. see my smile. its fake. aint them all.

so i was looking at last years christmas wishlist and what happened..
1. new Easton stealth hockey stick : got it. thanks dad!
2.ps2 games: nope
3.new ipod docking station: nope. although my old one started working again
4. this really funky wallet that i saw: yup. thanks nat priss cal!!
5.new shoes: got it like in feb. but better late than never i guess
6.money: not much but beggars cant be choosers
7.one way ticket to america: obviously
8. new phone: well. did get one. but in july
9.new crumpler bag: nope
10: for my grandpa to be back to before: sigh.. usnfortunately nope
11.to hear those 4 words: haha.. definately didnt happen. cant say it was all bad though
12. and the one thing that would make me the happiest person alive.. well. those hu know me well will know what im talking abt. but yea.. impossible again.. sigh.. haha.. just u know.. just maybe it can come true.. nah.. don wanna get my hopes up..but yea.. i pray for a miracle.. lol: HAHAHAH!!! OMG!! I REMEMBER THIS WISH!! DAMN RETARDED!! HAHAHA!! nope. didnt happen

so those were last years.. as u can see, not really expecting much this year but oh well. cant blame a guy from dreaming right.. ill think of a new 12 soon!!

Marcus Eng

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