ahh.. more random thoughts..
fake friends are like shadows. They're right there next to you when its all bright and sunny but nowhere to be seen when its all dark and gloomy. Fake friends are only there for the ride. They get off when the good part's over. They watch you like they watch a movie. Right there during the good part and getting up to leave during the bad parts. Fake friends are only there cause they need something out of the so called "friendship".. They need your help, your advice or your shoulder to lean on. its sad really cause you cant count on them for their help, or their advice, or their shoulder to lean on. It's hard to tell your real friends from your fake friends.. cause they all seem so similar. so alike in the things they do. The only way you'll know is when you need help. who's there when the smoke clears. who's there to catch you when you fall. who's there to pick you up when you're down. and who's there to give you to give you that kick in the ass and tell you life goes on.. your real friends. the ones who are there for you no matter what, every single time. these are your genuine friends. most of us are lucky to have them. hold on to them. real tight. cause once you lose them, you might not get them back. everyone has fake friends. every single person. jsut that some of them dont know who the fake ones are.. to those people. i sincerely hope you dont ever find out. seriously. live the lie. your fake friends. casue you dont want to find out who they are. cause it hurts. it really does. and it does have such a huge impact on you. no matter who you are. what you say nad what you think. it does affect. maybe it makes you smarter.. maybe it makes you more vulnerable.. maybe its just leaves you questioning everything you have cause you just realised the one thing you thought was great was all fake.. welcome to my nightmare.
think about it.. whens the last time you actually called to talk? cause if i rmb.. it was never. cause every call was to ask for a favour or sth.. and when's the last time i could talk to you abt shit and you'd cheer me up. and you'd try your best and help me out. and you'd know the right things to say.. and no matter what you'd make sure i was fine.. well see. i did all those things for you and not once did you ever say thanks or even reciprocate.. its funny how i never turn to you anymore. cause i know. doesnt achieve anything. you dont cheer me up. you dont say the right things. you never ever try and help me.. see. everytime i talk to u abt my problems, you suddenly change the subjects and talk abt you and your problems and blah blah blah. once, fine. a second time, dont really matter. a third? its ok.. a fourth? ok maybe starting to get irritating.. but everytime. every fucking time.. now see. thats not really being a friend is it? think. whens the last time i told u my problems and you were the one who cheered me up and helped me out.. ermm.. never. never never never.. you know.. not being a real friend is one thing. ok so you're not a real friend.. whatever.. but then. you putting me through all your crap since ive known you. well. thats a totally different story.. ive been so patient all this while.. ive put up with all ur fucking nonsense.. and yeah. never once have i gotten a thank you from you.. its like im at your every beck and call.. patience wears thin darling.. i hope you''re not there when mine snaps.
sorry for the rant.. just cant take it anymore.. and yes kathi.. im a very very bitter boy.. hahaha. sorry la. cant help it.
any of you experiencing what i am? my sympathy, my condolences.. but hey. always remember. what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger (:
