urgh fuck.. bleah.. lost the first game of the tournament 8-3.. damn.. but i did score 2. but yeah.. would have preferred the win. sigh.. but the highlight of the game was the huge fight at the end and the huge debacle that went on.. haha.. kinda retarded i guess. i mean. the games over. fight for what?

school was really really boring.. have i said how much i HATE chinese now.. like wtf.. seriously. theres no more chinese b and like im gonna fucking flunk chinese.. we had to write some stupid movie review.. like WTF!! in chinese. omfg.. i hate hate hate chinese.. i kinda skipped tok and hung out with my pal! (: we took silly retarded photos and played cards.. haha. oh, and i actually did work in math today, instead of doing nth and pissing the teacher off. english was damn retarded.. mr goh is like kinda funny, in a twisted weird retarded kind of way.. hahaha. happy chinese new tits.. LOL. so after school we decided to go to holland. and it was raining quite heavily. and we werent gonnna waste money on a cab so andrew,tim,steph,nic,shumei,ellen and i walked out to holland with cardboard boxes, one umbrella as "shelter".. and nic decided to be nic and shake trees along the way and drenched us. and andrew decided to be andrew and steal our cardboard boxes. -_- so yeah.. from drenched to.. more drenched? lol.. like soaked to the core. then shumei went to dau paolo to get cupcakes. so they're like 2 for $6.. like wth!! $3 for a stupid cupcake.. tsk tsk.. some people/.. haha.. but it was actually really good.. so we all went to the foodcourt.. it was damn funny.. this is what ive learnt from my time at the foodcourt. steph can be a really really good waitress.. shumei eats cupcakes really retarded. like with a fork and knife. lol. tim.. well.. tim is just tim.. lol. nic brings like donno how many different pairs of tshirts to school to change. steph is the new darth vader.. steph has an eyelash fetish.. and she's a pedophile!! haaha.. jkjk.. andrew brings a jacket to school everyday rain or shine. ellen does not know who sophia bush is. OMG!! go google image search!! how can anyone not know sophia bush. she;s like the hottest ever!! anyways.. OHH!! i wrote a petition to allow the wearing of my livestrong bands. AND. i got like 83 people to sign. all within half an hour of recess. how cool is that. so yeah. interesting up and down day i guess.

to you1: ermm.. ok.. like what the fuck la.. seriously. you know.. its kinda frustrating and pissing me off. like i try to be nice and try to make it work and all. and i really tried my best and like told you the truth and all.. and like you take it all and fucking throw it back into my fucking face. i mean like things were doing good and you go make that kind of remark and statement and did what you did.. and then you make its so god damn obvious that you're _____. you know what. at least i tried. you know, i really did. and well, obviously it wasnt good enough. and hey, this is what you want right. so yeah. happy now. and you know what, this time, its all on you. you made this. i dont have to feel bad or guilty anymore.. cause you see, i did everything i did. and you., well. you did what you did, so yeah. if thats what you want than there you go.

to you2: hope you get my message k. we'll solve this and get past it. we always do (:

i dont mean to snap at you. i swear. i dont even notice it. maybe thats why? maybe you catch me at the wrong time. so i guess its me. not you. bleah. it kinda sucks huh. priss keeps telling me the same thing over and over.. but i dont know.. i really dont know. so what now? we just drift? cause i really dont want that

under no roof.. the longest 17 hours of my life.. no sleep, no food, and absolutely nothing to do.. seriously... can you actually die of boredom cause i swear i came close.. it was like 10 hours of sitting around.. talking.. cracking jokes.. bonding.. but what seemed like an hour turned out to be only 6 mins.. oh dear lord.. and everyone managed to sleep which wasnt fair.. cardboard boxes that were soaked with mud and water.. wow.. inviting beds huh.. but i guess it was good in the sense that we spent time with people we usually wouldnt.. like we talked and bonded with people we barely talk to in school. and we learn stuff about each other.. and we learn what its like to be poor and homeless. and then we appreciate what we have right now. and we become thankful about how lucky we are.. and we stop complaining of always wanting more.. in between those 17 hours of boredom, we:

• tied up bingxi with rafia string and carried him around.. and it took 6 of us to carry him. heavy bugger


• used masking tape to gag him and then "wax" his eyebrows and chin! haha


• sung totally random and stupid songs like the barney song and our school anthem


• talked politics and government


• told really retarded and lame jokes


• played this story game


• and did many other retarded stupid stuff that i dont really remember at this point

anyways.. enough about under no roof.. its all in the past.. its over.. done with.we got out 17 hours of CAS. thank god.. so yeah.. today was kinda retarded.. me and jonho got dragged into the VP's office by the DM cause i was wearing my livestrong bands and jonho made some offhand remark about acs students looking smart.. it was the most stupid thing ever and also the most hilarious thing ever.. the DM didnt know what to say everytime jonho made a comeback

dm:you should show me respect cause im a teacher

jonho: ill show a teacher respect when a teacher shows me respect

*Silence*

HAHAHA!! omg.. i wanted to just laugh la.. ohh.. and according to the DM, my smile is very offensive. like WTF! so yeah.. and i cant wear my wristbands anymore.. its like i get punished for showing my support for cancer patients -_-.. and i guess i cant really smil anymore cause i could OFFEND people by smiling.. wow. oh. and the DM can suspend me cause he says my shirt is untucked too often.. wow.. aint this grand

isnt kinda sad how people always leave.. its true.. in some way or another, people always true.. you know whats the saddest form of leaving? drifting.. now that hurts

you know, i dont even know where to start and what to say.. i mean. new year, new start, new things , new frien ds. well. i didnt expect like with new friends means you discard your old ones.. you know, it really pains me to say this, but sometimes i feel that i hardly even know you anymore.. its like.. i donno.. we barely talk anymore.. you dont tell me stuff and i dont tell you stuff. and its sad. i mean. you're my really good friend.. or should i say were? i really dont want to. but bleah. this sucks.. its like all the new friends and shit.. i know its kinda retarded but i feel kinda jealous.. its like you;re so much closer to them even though you;ve known them for a shorter period of time. its like i got replaced in a sense.. like i donno.. like i was the flavour of the month and now there are suddenly more new exciting flavours to try out.. flavours that are nicer, more suited for you.sighhhh.. i miss you.but hey, you're happy right. so yeah, i guess its ok then.. i guess it is my fault.. i must have been a terrible friend. bleah. life's sad aint it.. how its so easy for good friends to jsust drift overnight... bleah

its almost 2 in the afternoon and im really really tired.. haha. at jonho's house now.. reached here at abt 6am.. slept at 7 woke up at about 1+ thanks to the nonstop ringing of my phone.. went to town last night at about 8+ 9. met jonho at subways, sat there for awhile than met russell priss and kim at heerens.. hung out then went to cine.. met kristi kathi kane shumei jerilyn sarina. went to nic's house at about 11+.. we had to sit outside to finish our alchohol.. lol.. da,m retarded.. 6 teens sitting on the curb drinking breezers.. then we played TEXAS HOLD EM!!! i tell you.. thats like the best card game ever invented.. I LOVE HOLD EM!! so i almost quadrupled my money playing!! kristi like lost all of hers! hahaha.. damn fun i tell you. we should have weekly poker nights la.. ordered macs halfway and hey kinda screwed up our orders and my iced lemon tea tasted and looked like shit.. so kane and juncai called and complained.. juncai went "your fucking delivery man fucking fucked up my order!" HAHAHA!! so they sent replacement diet cokes fries and iced lemon tea.. but my iced lemon tea still looked fucked!! WTF!! bloody hell. so yeah. hung out till like 5:30.. then walked out with jonho to take a cab to his house.. and here i am.. waiting for him to wake up so i can eat.haha

happy new year.. so chinese new year. i really dont get the big hooha surrounding chinese new year.. i really dont feel the excitement about it. seriously.. maybe its cause i dont get to keep the hongbao money. or maybe its cause we all grow fatter eating so much.. i have no idea;. i think the only good thing about cny is that you see all your relatives and all. cousins and uncles aunts grandaunts etc who you only see once a year. other than that, cny is kinda boring and i donno.. bleah. i think the only holiday worth celebrating is thanksgiving. now thats a real holiday, a real time to celebrate! haha

if you're reading this can you PLEASE tell me.. cause its not really fair and all. and im not gonna be able to sleep cause ill just keep thinking and thinking and wondering and wondering. PLEASE

chinese new year celebration in school= total waste of 3 hours.. basically sitting around in class, hall or the canteen wondering when the hell we can go.. bleah.. went to town with andrew and char-maine after school.. hung out at wheelock for a bit.. I FIXED MY PHONE!! YES!! so yeah.. charmaine went off to meet her cousin and me and andrew had lunch at shashlik with jonho. priss and russell joined us after.. haha. i LOVE shashlik! borsch soup is the BEST!! yup. then after that, me russell jonho and priss had this really long good talk.. it was really informative to say the least.. kinda eye opening. like it brought things to a new perspective. like russell said a few things that i never thought abt before and once he said it, it was like, "oh yeah.. that could be true!"..and in the end, there's still no conculsion cause we all cant be absolutely sure what the fuck is going on.. bleah. sighhh.. soooo frustrating.. urghh. but it was a good talk. i think we should do it more often. haha.

im kinda confused now.. cause i have no idea whats going on.. and i guess the saying is true.. you never truly know someone.. is it all a facade? whats true whats fake? which actions are accidental? which are on purpose? i never thought about it till this afternoon.. and suddenly it kinda made a lot of sense and kinda brought things into a new light.. i hope im the one thats wrong

with those eyes you see right through me
and with that face, you're so damn lovely

with that smile you make my heart thump
and with that touch you make me wanna jump

with that voice thats oh so pure and sweet
and with that look, shivers down to my feet

with your actions i'm always grinning
and with your this and that, i cant help looking

with that laugh you make me wanna smile
and with that guy you make me wanna run a mile

with your words you really made my day
and with your everything, i'd wish "sighh. if only there was a way"


and with those lines he just spoiled my mood
and with those lines nothing's good

bleah.. cheer up k priss!! (: i know how you feel cause i guess i'm feeling that way as well.. i'm going through the exact same thing..thats why we're so close huh. haha. and yeah. it sucks i know. and yeah.. fucking depressing la.. but hey, the thing is, we cant do anything about it, so i guess we can only sit back, relax and watch and then just feel all that much sadder.. sighh..oh well. thats life huh. but hey priss. miracles do happen sometimes.. so just hope. but we cant get our hopes up so dont hope for too much. and probably things will suck but hey. we're engs. and we dont stay down for long right.. i mean, look at kongkong. after all he's been through, he's still up and fighting and all. hahaha. so yeah. dont give up.. just keep fighting. but at the same time remember, life's a bitch.. it doesnt usually go as planned. and it looks like we're both gonna be gonna be hurting this time.. but fuck it yeah.. we're engs. we cant be sad for too long.. a sad eng is a damn damn boring eng.. haha. who wants that right. so cheer up k priss.. smile. look on the brightside. everything happens for a reason. and look, we've got nat and cal to back us up. and nat to make us laugh with her retardedness and happiness.. lol. dont be sad alright priss.. cause im in the exact same position as you and i probably need you soon to cheer me up. haha. (: love you cuz

cheer up pal!!! always smile never frown, even when you;re sad and down!! things happen for a reason.. and as long as theres no regrets.. then its good! (: and you know im always here for you no matter what right.. playing in the rain!! ahhhh!! we have to do that thing again! spinning and spinning and see who reaches the other side first!! haha. next time it rains k!! smile alright (: at least 50% of us has to be happy remember! and its your turn!! haha. (:

gosh.. its such a sad day for people today..

happy valentines day!! although its funny cause today just totally goes against what i believe in right kristi? LOL. but yeah. el dia de amor.. a day of hugs and kisses. full of flowers and teddy bears. candy and songs. kinda fun. i guess. haha. thanks to everyone who gave me something! (:

i found this poem.


I wish you were my Valentine
Though I may not be yours,
And I may, in my ignorance,
Be speaking to closed doors.

I have no inkling of your heart,
No hint what you might say;
But when I think of you the sun
Will just not go away.

There is in you a loveliness
That makes my darkness shine,
And so I'll wait, if wait I must,
To be your Valentine.

lol.. valentines day.. el dia de amor.. wow. time flies doesnt it.. its already a year since last years valentines day.. what a day that was. LOL. valentines day. the day of saint valentine. the day of love.. and if love doesnt exist, what does valentines day mean?

finally a day filled with salty popcorn!! yay!! :D

so hockey tournament thurs and friday.. played against malaysia beijing and some other singapore team. WE WON!! YES!! and i got 15 goals.. 5 games.. ohh.. and i wanna say a really BIG THANK YOU to char-maine, kristi, kathi, andrew, stephen, shumei, joy, shun, jonho and nic for coming to watch my final and support me! haha.. and thanks for the sunflower! and i really really really appreciate you guys coming down all the way so late at night to watch.. it really meant a lot :D. you never know who your true friends are until they come watch you play/. haha.. jkjk. but yeah. thanks again guys..

cant really remember what else has been happening the last few days.. nothing much i guess. boring boring boring.. valentines day this wednesday. like who cares right. HAHAHA.. just another wednesday.

ohhhh.. here's a shoutout to my pal!! (: KRISTI ROCKS!! haha. cause even though she had other more important obligations, she came all the way down to watch my match, and therefore couldnt really ____________... THANKS SO MUCH PAL!! SORRY!! cause i really feel bad though.. like you shouldnt have come la.. i mean ___ is more important!! haha.. but thanks!! i seriously owe you pal!! haha :D:D

head over heels.. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!! how now brown cow?

you know.. i guess i dont really know you huh? actually. who does know you? in life, there;s always at least one person in your life that knows you damn well. who knows what you would do in certain situations and what decisions you make.. that person is usually someone you trust and someone close to you.. but in your case, who does know you? who understands what you're doing or why you do certain things? cause i dont. i thought i had you all figured out. guess i was wrong. i donno. its like, some of the things you do. do you do them on purpose or unintentionally? i mean like, do you realise what you're doing or are you really oblivious to the consequences? sometimes you do things that really hurt other people. do you realise that? i mean.. seriously.. do you? do you do those things having an ulterior motive and not realise how many people you're hurting in the process?

Marcus Eng

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