you know they say "people always leave". i guess its true. people always leave. and you cant do anything about it huh. but why is it that like these things happen when you least expect it or when you dont want them to? you never expect these things to happen.. you least expect it, thats the worst.thigns are all fine and dandy and suddenly wham bam thank you maam, people leave. when mean like it happens all the time so you should think you're well equipped to handle it but every single time, it's so saddening and painful. i mean if you think about it, people leave, and some dont ever come back. you say goodbye and maybe thats the last sentence you would ever say to that person. it hurts so much to say goodbye to someone whos really close or someone who means a lot to you and is in some way important. i guess goodbyes suck.. people leaving, that sucks even more.

you know i'll miss you guys damn much.. i felt so fucking sad today. seriously, i really felt like crying. you guys mean a lot to me and you guys really made an impact on my life. seriously. but yeah. bleahh. i really dont know what to say and all. except thanks i guess. thanks for everything. thanks for the memories. thanks for the fun and the laughter. thanks for the advice, the talks, to sillines, the retardedness, all the good times. basically thanks for everything. i'll miss you guys so damn much.

so today was ermmm, basically, crap. fucked up.. shit. the dumps. pick you poison. i guess nothing seemed to be going right and then like boom! like someone just drops a bombshell that just explodes and shit. bleah.. sighhh. i feel sooo sad and depressed now it aint even funny.. but i have hockey later but since the day's been so effed up and my recent shitty slump, i guess we;re gonna lose.. oh happy joy.. can the day get any worse?

you know whats the worse part.. last year was damn good.. 7. and now, 3 months into 2007, i'm down to 2.. i honestly lost 5 just like that. without any warning. thats the worst part