HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNNY!!! (:

so yeah. celebrations with rich delicious cupcakes at lunch. highlite of the day was smashing cupcake in bingxi's face for $5. other than that, a really boring day in school where nothing interesting happened. so i guess we're officially back in this mundane routine. oh wells. tomorrow's thursday. i really really hate thursdays. its long and boring. double history. double econs. double physics. double PE. and math sandwiched inside there somewhere. oh dear lord. oh well, maybe something good or exciting will happen tomorrow. but then again, i dont wanna get my hopes up. cause you see, i learnt that when you have high hopes for something, or you expect something, its that much more saddening when nth good happens and even worse when something shit happens.

went to holland with char-maine andrew joshua woon chang shumei james mich and johnny. ate at food court. talked and hung out. and it was kinda a weird group. cause i honestly dont think that like the 10 of us have actually hung out before. so yeahh. but hey, it was fun and hilarious. went to holland shopping centre to get MAO bags. then to party city where johnny got his birthday presents from james and me. yeahh.

waited for priss and cabbed home with her. as usual, long conversations and hot gossip with her never fail to entertain and open my eyes. told her a lot of how i feel. she told me her opinions abt it. i got to tell her my crazy out of this world theories and she being my cousin, listened and laughed at my possible insanity. hey cuz, you never know k. shit happens. theres a distinctly high possibility that a lot of those things i said may be true! she told me tons of interesting things which could be true. but it was mostly me using my psychic abilities and predicting the wild and crazy future. so yeahh. good long cab ride home. can ride home with priss seems to just shorten the time. while cab ride home with andrew on the other time is really long cause he fall asleeps within 2 mins so i dont have anyone to talk to. -_-" hahaha!

so if he likes her. and she likes him. whats stopping them? and whats gonna happen? why did he make that stupid mistake?
or what if she likes this other him and that other he maybe likes her. or but maybe they're secretly together cause of certain things heard and certaing actions?
Or maybe she likes this other other him but you never see them talk but theres this picture you see. so how?
OR theres that distinct possibility that this Him likes her cause its pretty obvious. does she like this Him? who knows?

dudeee. you're stupid. first mistake made awhile ago. PFFT! unforgivable. STUPID! DUMB! what were you thinking man. and then now. oh my oh my. whats going through your mind dude. like seriously, if you had the choice of like a ps3 and a ps1. why take the ps1. pfft. stupidity at a new level. and like. hello. dangling right in front of you. HOLY CRAP! wake up! open your eyes!!
you know who im talking abt priss

ok. i just re read what i wrote. and i started laughin. haha. i dont know why

11th july 2007. judgement day. 15 days. my oh my.we're cool like that best boat buddies ever! (:

the void that no one else can fill,
the ones i worry for nonstop still.

the girl with the curse of curves,
who has a way with nice sweet words.

she comes back and seems to care,
funny thing is, only when theres no one there.

always, a million thoughts running through her mind,
just like me, well, we're the same kind.

good friends, i would have never thought,
especially after the way we fought.

the gaps that will forever mend,
i thank god for my bestfriend.

not so sure about that popular wannabe
group to group, getting fishy.

(oh btw. each 2 lines represent different people. its not about 1 single person)

life sucks, shit happens
cheer up sexay! things will work out k! trust me on this! (: smile!!!!!

oh oh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNNY!!!!!!!!! (:
not like you read my blog. but whatever

isn't it funny how like one line can make your mood take a 180 degree turn.
isn't it funny how a sentence can make you change your mind about something just like that
isn't it funny how a bunch of words can make you wonder
isn't it funny how certain stuff said can make you feel so many different emotions
and isn't it funny how it can also just make you wanna tear your hair out

so 2 days of school have come and gone. new timetable. weird timetable. first council meeting of the term. first celefest meeting of the term. first of a lot of things actually. so had 2 free periods at the end of the day today. so char-maine, johnny, shumei and i went to cold stone to eat ice cream. made our way back for celefest meeting. i think a bunch of stuff happened. but i dont really wanna talk about it or its so boring that you;ll fall asleep at your keyboard. so yeah.

how now brown cow?

I’m on fire and now I think I'm ready to bust a move
Check it out I’m rocking steady
To the beat in my head
It goes oh, oh-oh-oh
I know that she’s the only one
I’d rather waste our time together
Yeah, ‘cause we can get down

Betty can’t quit carving question marks in my wrist
How come we’re so alone
We waste away the days with nicotine and television samples
From an era we hate to admit we embrace
We fail to represent
We fail to be content
We fail at everything we ever even try to attempt
And so the story goes
As only Betty knows
It’s time to take control

so i guess the holidays are officially over. and i think its safe to say that work wise, this officially has been the most unproductive holidays ever. like omg. i did absolutely nothing. my brains like dead now. i think i've forgotten everything i've learnt in the last 6 monts. which brings me to my next point. holy shit. june's almost over!!! which means 6 months have passed and half the year is over. holy crap. fucking fast! but oh well. the sooner 2007 goes, the better. yup.

so anyways. the holidays. i can honestly think of so many different things to describe the holidays. for one thing, its been really really weird. like so weird its not even funny. the hols have been dissappointing. i think you all know why. its been pretty eventful and fun too in a way. eye-opening, crazy, wreckless are other words to describe the holidays. nice in a way too. sad. morale dropping. i donno. there are plenty of words to describe the holidays. yup. ive learnt a lot of things over the past 4 weeks. things that i didnt really wanna learn but i learnt anyways.

you know how sometimes in life, your head tells you one thing, but your heart tells you another. which do you listen to? they say your head tells you what to do, your heart tells you what you want to do.
"If your head tells you one thing, and your heart tells you another, before you do anything, you should first decide whether you have a better head or a better heart"
dilemma

no pain no gain

the quiet things that no one ever knows

so ive got the whole sesason of heroes. and ive been watching it non stop since last night. 4 more episodes left! and if you haven't watched it. you should. its a really really really good show. and it made me think a lot. won't it be cool if we had some kind of extraordinary abilities. just anything at all. make our life a little easier. or maybe just make us feel special and not so normal and average. and destiny. whats our destiny? everyones destined to do something. but what? and when? and how? its like, we were born on this earth to do something. and we have to find out what it is. we all wanna do something great, something special. we all want to leave our mark when we're gone. we want people to remember us for the things we did. and lastly, if the whole world exploded tomorrow, would it be that bad? if one of us just died tmr, would it make a difference? would people remember us?

anna asked me yesterday "do you ever wish you were someone else?". and you know. i do. all the time. whether its someone famous, someone talented, someone fictional like a comic book hero or sometimes, someone so normal and yet has something that you could never have. and sometimes you wished you were one of your friends, or someone really close to you but somehow feel a little envious of. maybe he/she has something you really really want. or maybe he/she possesses qualities or talents that you lack. or maybe you're just jealous of everything about him/her. jealousy is a really really ugly thing.

you know in life, there are those really rare moments where you're given a second chance because you screwed up the first time around. we should consider ourselves lucky that we even get another oppurtunity to redeem ourselves. great moments come from great oppurtunities. and these chances dont come about really often. dont you think we should make use of these second chances. cause if we're so lucky to receive them in the first place, we should make full use of them. but isnt it kinda funny how some people are so lucky to receive these second chances and yet they decide to go mess it up. and then after that, they still get third and fourth chances after that. these people get so many god damn chances and they never treasure them. and the funny thing is, there are some of us who;d give anything to even get a first chance. life's unfair aint it
you have that chance. and yet you dont make use of it. you're either blind or fucking stupid. you had the chance. you let it slip. you fucking blew it. dumbass. and yet for some reason you've got that second chance. but it looks like you're not even making use of it. what the fuck is wrong with you. you're so fucking lucky. you dont realise whats it front of you. you dont realise how great something is. you take things for granted cause you expect 3rd 4th 5th and many more chances after that, and you probably will get it. lucky bastard. i'd do anything to have that first chance that you had.

epiphany. isn't it funny how you can get epiphanies at 3am in the morning. but hey. its true. i was reading something. you know how sometimes in life, you know something. and i guess you understand something. but the thing is, you don't want to believe it? like maybe if you dont believe it, it wont come true that kinda thing? people tell you things, and you see things, and you read shit, and yet you choose to be deaf/blind cause you dont want to believe it. you think to yourself, "hey, nothing wrong with being a little optimistic right" the glass is half full and shit like that. i mean, is there any harm in dreaming? or hoping or wishing? you had high hopes or something like that. and you became so dumb or stupid cause of it. but you know what. theres a diffrence between optimistic and just being fucking dumb and wishful thinking. i guess its time to wake up and face reality

you know how they say first impressions are the most important? i think that's pretty much bullshit. first impressions dont tell you what a person is like or what kind of person he/she is. nope. first impressions just show you what kind of person he/she wants you to think. cause everyone knows people judge first impressions. so most of the time, they put on a facade when they first talk to you and stuff. you think they're so damn nice and shit like that cause they're so nice and sweet to you.. but surprise surprise, a few weeks or months down the road, you realised it was all fake. they just wanted you to believe they;re so nice and kind. sucks doesnt it. i guess you never know who a person really is until you get to know him/her better huh. i still dont know who the real you is. i hope my first impression was right.

you know. its funny how you're the complete opposite of you i thought you were. you're living proof of how my first impression theory works. funny aint it. i believed your lies and your facade. damn i was stupid. but at least now i know what kind of person you really are.. watch out. wait till everyone else finds out too

priss called from china yesterday. relax cuz. things will work out one k

back from hongkong and i miss it already.. not really thoe countr but the hockey and the hanging out with the team.

so yeah.. the trip was ok. the hockey was fun, albeit a tad dissappointing. the long periods of time in between games were really retarded. shopping was crap.. walking and walking was tiring and made my feet hurt like crap. the hotel was shit. the beds were so uncomfortable. there was only 1 english channel on tv. but then again, the trip was abt hockey.

so first game. we got thrashed 5-2 by taipei. second game we got raped 5-0 by manilla. third game we won 5-1 against a weak pengpeng team. quarter finals we played our hearts out and beat hongkong 5-1. in the semis, we played the best we;ve ever played and got really lucky and beat the other hongkong team 2-1. we scored the winning goal with 3 seconds left in the game. things like that only happen once in a lifetime!!! and finals today.. urghh.. fuck. lost 7-2 to taipei.. fuck man.we seriously should've won.. sighhhhhh.. seriously.. we could've beat them. but life sucks. and shit happens. and so my streak of losing finals and tournaments continues............

but in between shopping and games. went for team supper at 4 am in the morning. steamboat until 6am. supper cum breakfast. it was damn fun and frikking hilarious. watching our own match on video at 4am in the morning cause we were bored and couldnt sleep.. telling all kinds of racist and sexual jokes before each game to lighten up the mood.. trust me. it works. laughter is the key!! relieves pressure! HAHA! and for the finals.. we all wore HUGE different coloured afro wigs and skated one lap with them. we looked like retards but it was damn fun!

oh. and our flight was supposed to be at 6:30. which meant after our game, we rushed through the prize presentations, got undressed the fastest ever, and ran to the coach so we could get to the airport in time. and in the bus, i said sth like "wouldnt it be funny if we all rushed and rushed so much and panicked and stressed and when we reach the airport, they tell us the flights postponed. id laugh my balls off la." and when we reached the airport, lo and behold, our flight was delayed for 2 hours!! HAHA!! IM PSYCHIC!! i gave kenny 6 numbers to buy toto tmr!t HAHAHA! it was hilarious la. so they gave us each $120 hongkong to eat dinner. so we all pooled our coupons, feasted at popeyes. and we still had over a thousand dollars left so we all had 2 scoops of ben and jerrys.. yup yup.. it was really good.. so yeah. i had tons of fun in hk. could've been better.could've won. but the thing is, we went there as underdogs. no one expected us to win anything. we didnt expect to get far. after the first 2 games, morale was at an all time low. but hey. we bounced back. we won 3 on the trot. lost to a very very good team. i'd say we did singapore proud. not that singapore recognized it -_-" . but yeah. learning experience. team bonding. (:

my inspiration from the spectator stands!! (:

everyones like in china now. excpet breastfliend and andrew...

OH MY OH MY!! so the last few days have taught me a few things..

MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!
NEVER GIVE UP!
IT AINT OVER TILL THE FAT LADY SINGS!!

CINDERELLA STORY DARLINGS!! THE DREAM IS STILL ALIVE!!!

its like 3am in the morning. 10 and a half more hours till my flights.. its off to the land of hongkong people!!! hockey hockey hockey.. i honestly cant wait. im so damn excited!!!!!! (:

on a random note. my first match is at 2:15am. then then next match is at 11am. less than 8 hours before my first match ends. i mean if its afternoon 8 hours its ok. but i mean come on.. and my next match is 1am. hahha. wtf.

i was talking to mich just now.. we're BOAT BUDDIES!! cause we're in the same boat! HAHA! (: and we have a motto!! and we're gonna solve our problems!! hahaha (:

BINGXI!! i havent seen you in a long time!! HAHHAHA!! YOU'RE FRIKKING HILARIOUS! all our msn conversations! you;re retarded i tell you. oh bingxi.. i really really dont wanna say it to you. but i gotta say it. theres no such thing as love k. sorry to break it to you bingxi!! SADDENING HUH!! hahaha. and ermm.. im gonna prove you wrong!! (: OHH!!! SINGAPORE, KOREA AND INDONESIA!! TAKE YOUR PICK BINGXI!!!

EH BRUDDERRRRRRR!!! hello friend.. sorry i couldnt meet you today!! i really wanted to!! ): oh! you still owe me lunch k! or ipod earphones! up to you! haha. jkjk. we'll go out next week k! if you;re not in malaysia or sth! and finish all the homework!! english econs history math. the list goes on and on and on and on! hahaha. oh well.. see you soon k!! (: oh ehhh breastfliend.. ermmm. merry christmas. and ermm.. happy halloween!! (:

sexayyy!!! ill miss our random gay and retarded conversations!! HAHAHA!! we're gonna rule the world with our emoness and retardedness!! we;re so cool huh! lol. AND IM GONNA MEET THE PRO!! AND WE'RE GONNA BE FAMOUS!!! dont be too emo k! remember our goal and plan!!! (:

ok.. its time for bed.. GOODBYE!! SEE YOU SOON!! HONGKONG HERE I COME!! lol.. so gay. too excited already! HAHAHAHA

2 hours 19 minutes. new record. hahaha. thats the longest i've ever talked on the phone. and the new record was accomplished today! haha. i talked to kathi for 2 hours 19 mins. oh my, haha. BB!! cant wait till you come back!! (:

life likes to present you with obstacles and challenges just to see how you'd react and how you'd cope. and then laugh when you fail and fall down. when you actually do overcome those challenges and obstacles, life then likes to present you with even harder obstacles and challenges so it can laugh some more. you know when they say life's funny? its cause they like to have a good laugh at your expense.

in life. we're like trapped in a big box of darkness and we're all looking for those small cracks that let light in. cause we all want light and happiness. but we always struggle to find those tiny cracks of temporary happiness. oh well. what can we do right

never harbour too high a hope. cause the higher your hopes, the farther and harder you fall

the weekend just blew by. watches oceans 13. it was alright i guess. but i prefered the first 2. some party thingy on sunday. grandma's birthday dinner. and lets just say the highlite was 6 of us sharing 53 ice cream puffs. beat that.. hahaha. today was cool.. met sheryl and priss. they were frikking late la.. basket.. hahaha. walked around cine aimlessly. then went to taka. went to this art shop.. we bought CROWNS!! HAHAHA. we're the royal family.. then we went to the library. yes. the library.. can you believe it. haha. i never thought the 3 of us would actually be at the library. but yeah. got 2 books. then we ate. went to this toy fair thingy.. and we were damn ready to buy backpacks. disney princess, tinkerbell and spiderman backpacks.. haha. we;re so gay.. then went to wisma.. it was a fun and retarded day. those 2 are hilarious. and full of shit. and they'll talk abt damn random and inapropriate stuff all of a sudden. HAHAHA. never a dull moment with them. hahha.


My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer


so off to hongkong tmr.. YES! FINALLY!! THANK GODS!! been waiting for so long for the tournament. yup.. its gonna be a blast.. but at the same time.. kinda scared and nervous.. i mean. dont wanna lose right.. dont know how good the other teams are.. manila taipei and some other team. oh wells.. wish me all the best guys!!!


Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.


this is the funniest thing ive heard in a long time.
"i wanted to buy time but not enough money" HAHAHAHA!!! frikking hilarious i tell you! omg. it still makes me laugh like hell!
ehh breastfliend.. happy halloween and happy easter! (:

omfg.. my whole post just got deleted.. cb. oh well. im not typing it out all over again.. stupid blogger. in a nutshell. i went out tuesday. i went out thursday.. other than that. been rotting away at home.. uh huh..

fuck you.. i dont know what else to say but ermmm. fuck you. like seriously. what the fuck is your problem. seriously.. i thought things were gonna become good and i honestly believed it did. but then you had to go and do.. well. you basically acted like yourself. or the you that i was convinced was just me overreacting.. looks like i was right about you huh. and trust me. i wished i was wrong. but hey. you proved me right. funny how things worked out huh. like after everything that happened. and still this shit.. and i didnt even do squat.. you know what., maybe i will make your words true.. now that'll be funny.. ive got nth to say to you. actually i do.. ermmm. 2 words. fuck you

hongkong on wednesday. i honestly cant wait to go, play and hopefully win sth..

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'
cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

sighhhhhhhhhh... i feel so down now.. sorry bingxi and andrew!

Marcus Eng

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