today us ACS founders day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ACS! so its not that im so happy abt founders day but it led us to coming back from obs one day earlier. hahah so yeah. f=ounders day celebration today was boring.. but went to lido after. watched THE EYE. JESSICA ALBA IS DAMN HOT!!! so yeah. it was quite scary. sheryl was screaming like crazy! it was a so so movie. JESSICA ALBA IS SOOO HOT!! HAHA! ok. that was a really random and boring paragraph

you're starting to remind me of fakeness. and that's really really bad

cheer up dulcena!

so obs is over. and the last 4 days have been the most difficult 4 days of my life!! and also, the last 4 days have been the longest ever days of 2008. but its all over and i think im probably gonna start missing it soon.. weird huh. haha

so yeah. i guess mixed emotions? i definately have fun. but i also felt very FRUSTRATED, tired. it was draining and really disgusting and yet it was an eye opening learning experience and thats what its all about. kayaking was really fun and yet tiring at the same time. the sun was a killer. like just burning your skin and giving you skin cancer. but it was fun. i like kayaking.. HIKING on the other hand, i dont like so much. in fact, i really really hate it.. omg. my bag was so damn heavy. like carrying a ton of bricks. plus the really really long walks with not enough breaks. PLUS walking at sweta speed! :D PLUS, hacing to carry sweta's bag cause she almost fainted! TSK!! but its ok! sweta's my hiking buddy! :D :D swimming in the quarry is fun. belaying was alright. jetty jump was freaking awesome! sleeoing in tents is something i really dont want to do ever again cause its so hot and stuffy. unless it rains, like the first night, and then it floods your tent or leads to your friends invading your tent cause theirs is much much worse. not being able to shower after 3 hours of hiking totally sucked. but hey, its OBS, where you really rough it. and yeah, an unforgettable experience

so its been 4 days. 4 days of ___ ______ and _______ __ __. so ____ _ ______ ___? that one im not too sure.. soon ill have the answer. so the wait begins.

ahhh. that game. i know that game.. i dont really like that game. it kinda sucks. kinda hurts too after losing., but hey, maybe this games gonna suck more.. i guess we'll see. game on. game on

tomorrow is off to obs for 4 days. no proper toilets. no proper food. no ipods no phones no hockey no soccer no tv. holy crap. it sounds like hell, and yet, im really really looking forward to it.. why? cause right, 4 days of not ______ __ ___ ___, and that means i think i can ___ ____ ___! :D :D and that is gonna be a good thing. so i guess by friday, we'll see how things work out.

its sunday 10:43pm. in an hour and 17 minutes, the week is going to end. thank god. its been a really really crap bad week. hands down the worst week of 2008. hopefully necxt week will be better. well, theres no way to go but up so yeah..

im so damn tired of everything. im so damn sick of it all. so now i quit. i give up. whatever it is, you win. you win.

im so sick and tired of it all. its like everything just keeps falling and falling and i'm trapped underneath not knowing how to get out.. i'm sick of everything. i'm so tired of all this. i just wanna give up
murphy's law: what can go wrong will go wrong
now how true is that? its been a really shitty crappy 2 days. thank god its friday tomorrow

i love the frozen youghurt at holland village. but im fucking determined. so yeah.
we lost to acs independent. damn it. i have nothing to say about that match. except that there really aint no justice in the world.. from last year till now. i give up. i guess lifes unfair. fucking bullshit.

why do we even try, when all we do is fail?
why do we even try, when all we do is lose to bastards and bitches who dont deserve it?

i'm sick and tired of it all. i quit

sometimes we get thrown curveballs and we dont know whether to swing or just let the ball fly past.

today seemed really really tiring. cause i didnt sleep last night cause i watched the liverpool inter milan match. i think we need more TOK lessons. cause they're great to catch some shut eye

sakae buffet with sheryl joshua priss and lian. it was good. i really love sakae buffet!!

sweet? no not really? more like so damn stupid

eye opening day today. i dont know what to make of it.

char-maine! thanks for everything! you're seriously the best!! bestfriend!!! and no such sharing shit! haha! sharing is not caring!! (:

things are sooo weird and sooo confusing. its like you dont know what to make of everything. you dont know what to think, what to feel, what to do. but i guess thats life, full of uncertainties, full of curveballs. just waiting for you to slip up

maybe there isn't justice in the world after all.. i guess life's that unfair

ai shi confusing de
hen shi jen de

cheer up tabby! and get well soon!! (:

ahhh.. fakeness.. showing your true colours once again. oh wells. i mean, you were really nice.. for awhile at least

wo xiang fang qi le

i miss year 3 and year 4
i miss last seasons hockey
i miss the twins being in school
i miss daryl leroi they all being in school
i miss si y
i miss travel hockey in america
i miss haunted house
i miss orientation
i miss how council used to be
i miss walks to serene centre at 1am
i miss council sleepovers
i miss mass dance
i miss orientation exco meetings
i miss friends that i think i've sorta drifted from

i guess i miss a lot of things. but then again, whats the point of missing things that arent coming back.. this is so cliche but, you never really appreciate things until they're gone. once they're gone, you just start missing them. but whats the point if they aint coming back?

the weekend flew by.. and its been a month and half of school. holy shit. its like we're sprinting through 2008 with no chance of taking a breather.

i guess it was just a day. a day like any other day. and its passed. and nothing seems like it has changed. oh well, no expectations means no hopes crushed.

021320081341 (:

i can't help but to keep thinking the worst of you. i know i shouldn't. but i dont know why, i just cant help it.

El dia de Amor

today is February the 14th. It is Valentine's Day. Yesterday i did one of the craziest, embarrassing and possibly stupidest thing. was it worth it? hmmmmmmmm but nonetheless, i did it, and i cant take it back :D

so today, ogl dance. omggg. it was bad cause the crowd was like so unenthusiastic so it wasnt as great as it could be. oh well. thank you everyone for everything that you guys gave me for Valentine's Day!!!! thank you char-maine, alison&pattrick, feline, anna, clarisse, ellen, shumei, sweta, mich, james, tessa, denise, zhenli, althea, tabby, daphne desiree & dulcena! ok if i left you out, IM REALLY REALLY SORRY!!

so today is valentine's day. and i dont know what to say. one word to describe it? hmmmm.. different i guess.. dinner with joshua junhung and chloe..

you leave me wondering all the time. you leave me confused. you leave me in a mess.

its now Wednesday February the 13th. 1 day till valentines day. ohhh la la

sometimes in life, there are gonna be people who just really annoy you. people who just want attention so they just put a false facade, act pitiful and make everyone care. oh well, theres nothing you can do. there are a lot of these kinds of people out there.

i have this plan. and it either rocks. or it bombs. happiness or embarrassment. only time will tell.
to do or not to do. that is the question

7 ENG's.. i think this is the first picture that all 7 of us are in together. soo cool

4 ENG's

too cool already

me and my brother

i love my cousins!

cheena new year 2008

so the 4 day chinese new year break is coming to an end. THANK GOD!! i really cant wait to go back to school. sitting around the house doing absolutely noting but rot away has lost its appeal. so even though monday sucks with no free periods and triple math, i cant wait to go to school tomorrow. a bunch of people came over yesterday. ellen kristi kathi sheryl joshua lian james mich and priss. we just hung around eating and talking. sometimes its those little things of doing absolutely nothing but just sit and hang out and bum around with your friends. sometimes we forget to find the happiness in these kinds of little things.

its all been a flash. so many things. but how do you read the things you see? how do you know whats the right signals? it all seems fine and dandy but you never know do you? i'm ready to get hurt. im just waiting for you to put the knife through my heart.

el mundo para usted

so its chinese new year eve today. and while everyone is getting excited about dressing up in nice fancy clothes, all the new year goodies, and of course all the money that comes along with it. but honestly, i'm not really all that looking forward to all of it. in fact, i rather have the mundane routines of everyday school. PFFT! i have no idea why, but i guess chinese new year is the same ol thing every single year with no change whatsoever. so i guess im getting bored.

so chinese new year celebration in school today. i had to mc with DUNCAN! haha. funny idiot. it was alright i guess. not all that bad. 6X FOR THE WIN! :D so town after with sheryl joshua mich priss chloe andrew and BINGXI. chang shumei and johnny came soon after. ate KFC!! and then just bummed around at MCCAFE! was supposed to watch sweeny todd but that didnt really work out. so yeah. reunion dinner at priss' house later. no pizza this year. PFFT!

254 ++++

and all im doing is throwing myself into the deep end. thinking that there might be hope when its probably gonna be the same as last time. its like i'm digging my own grave just waiting for someone to push me in. i'm just gonna get hurt and for some reason, i'm stupidly waiting and doing nothing.
maybe sometimes we need a little bit of foolishness and stupidity to succeed.
maybe sometimes we need to face reality and just give up.

and sometimes, its worth all of it. worth all the nonsense and shit for that few moments of happiness and joy.

im confused and im lost, and i dont know what to do.

i dont wanna be stuck in the middle. i really dont

254

14,400

and those numbers all add up up to the little happiness that makes it all worth it



but at the end of it all, no matter how good things are and no matter how happy i am, i will still have my doubts

Marcus Eng

10 March 1990
19
ACS International
Ice Hockey

My Life

follow me on Twitter

Plurk.com