today is sunday march 9th. tomorrow is my birthday (:
so the hockey tournament is over. we lost all 4 matches. damn it
friday was spring dance.. i dont really know how to describe it really. setting up was long and tiring. it took us 3+ hours to decorate the hall and to get everything organised and in place. im still wondering whether it was still worth it or not. at least it was kinda fun. tiring yes, but funny and fun at the same time. MARCUS' CHICAS!!! :D :D :D lots of wastage of coloured duct tape and eating food and trying to wax each other. fun. which reminds me, i got my first few birthday presents! :D :D
clarisse joy and nicolette got me this cute birthday balloon. leanne and natasha got me this stuffed toy. then halfway through the night, chang surprised me with a cake! :D thank you guys so much!! i really appreciated it!! you guys dont know how much better my night was thanks to you guys.
so i guess i didnt really enjoy spring dance like i should've. i didnt see the dance. i didnt really see the bands. but oh wells. a million thoughts were running through my mind that night. frustration. anger. sadness. dissappointment. envy. longing. like a million thoughts running through my mind. and all i want is a seave to filter things out and sort out all my thoughts so i'd know what to do and what to feel.
sometimes people tell us different things. sometimes different people tell us different things. that is why its hard to know whats the truth and whats a lie. cause you know what to believe or you dont know who to believe.
you think you know someone, but then that person turns out to be someone totally different from who you thought he/she was. and it saddens you cause you were proven totally wrong. why do we believe in the best of people, if all they do is let us down
i'm tired. i'm exhausted. i'm broken. i'm confused. i'm sad. i'm disappointed. i'm sick. i'm lost. i give up.
you win
