i've been in HongKong for 3 days and i miss singapore already. we've won 2 lost 2. urghhh. damn my stupid knee. damn the guy who injured it 3 weeks ago.

i miss home.

cause sometimes all we wish for is a little fairness in life.

so im off to hongkong in 4 hours for my ice hockey tournament. and im excited yet nervous, kinda scared. hmmm. i cant wait. hopefully my knee holds up

council dinner last night.. it was fun.. one last hurrah as 16 high before we step down next week. a night of good food, good company, good laughter and good wii time. it was good. really good. so i guess its over huh. 3rd student council. we had fun, we had laughter, we made mistakes, we pulled off the impossible. we did it. you guys are the best council ever! (: and im damn glad i was part of it.

today was a really slow moving day. like literally slow. i guess today was kinda like "last minute rush EE" day. but thank goodness i finished a few days ago so i wasnt really caught up in the rush. that being said, it was really boring cause it seemed everyone else was like rushing so i didnt really wanna bother them. so no econs no english. just walking around rotting away. OH OH OH! i did learn something though :D aiyooooo.. it was quite funny. lol. on a random note, clumsy sly scandalous secretive are the words of today

blood wedding was kinda boring. just sitting there talking to waikit and toh. oh wells. hockey practice. gosh it feels good to be back on the ice again.

wow, if you actually read the whole post, you kinda wasted 2 mins of your time reading random borong ramblings about my really boring day. oh well

innocent smiles

its off to hongkong in 5 days! :D

angsty emo girls are the sex

ok. i have a confession to make. soooo, i think i'm in love! kristen stewart is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo HOT!!!!!!

youthful innocence
un-ending joy
perpetual smile

the shine of those eyes
the smile on that face

judgment day tomorrow.. sighhhhhh

this smile to you is fake

If I told you this was killing me, would you , would you Stop?

by next week, about half of the school term would over. it's already april and its really really scary how soon, a quarter of the year would've passed and it seems like i'm still stuck in 2007. i'm stuck wondering and remembering the past when i should be looking towards the shit thats about to hit me in the future. its deadlines after deadlines, assignments after assignments, and the scary part is, there doesn't seem to be an end of even a brief rest.

so last year in july, i posted this:
"ttoday was really really... ermm. i have no idea how to describe today. i cant think of a single word to describe todsay. sad happy depressing emo frustrating angry weird wasted can all be used to describe today actually. like seriously, such a mood swing day it wasnt even funny. but yeahh. no english today. this long emo talk with jonho. physics was boring as usual. and i dont even wanna talk abt math. fucking frustrating and just pissed the living daylights out of me. afte school we were supposed to work on the haunted house. but after working for awhile, it was kinda weird cause like everyone started to leave the room to go on emo talks with each other. im serious. like at one point. there were like 3-4 pairs or threes of us just sitting scattered around being all depressed and emo and pouring our soul to each other. it was kinda cool but really sad cause like everyone was in such a sad and emo mood and shit. yeahh. fuckkkk. priss ellen and i jsut stayed back to like talk and talk and rant and shit abt everything. met johnny shumei for dinner at holland v. lian and bingxi came too. it was a really good dinner at nydc. like we just talked and talked and laughed so much it was really fun. bingxi was a fucker. wah lau. you insulted me la. it hurt k. right through the heart!! ): and i got to talk to lian and listen to his really wise advice! thanks lian. and yeah. it was realy fun. pictures prove it! after that went to shumei's house with priss ellen bingxi. just hung around and let the weird night continue. cabbed home with priss.took like a frikking hour to get home cause of traffic. but it was really weird night. saddening and depressing in a way. but hey. thats life. cant say i didnt expect it. oh well.

ellen: you're damn stupid you know marcus. like seriously wtf.
shumei: yeah! you cannot think is it. you know that you were damn retarded
me: yeahh. i know. sighhh


i hate it when people say that. fuckingg bullshit

woww.. i was so emo a year ago.AHEM! ANNABELLE LIM! GO LOOK AT THAT! so you know sometimes PEOPLE can like break your heart or like take a knife and like stick a knife through it and twist and twist and twist! but hey, what can you do right. and its funny how someone can make you blog nonstop long emo posts, posts that seem so retarded now that you look back and read them. sigh. its funny huh. it all started with a cab ride. HANGMAN! then a cab ride to BARKER! and the imaginary "one week". and the stupid sms that totally just shot me down! :D :D :D

youthful exuberance
child-like innocence
unending fervor
boundless enthusiasm
perpetual smile
abundance of glee
ignorant jubilation

the smile on that face
the smile on my face

do you know what its like to look forward to something, to set something in your sights, to work towards that something, and when that something is oh so close, it gets taken away from you, just like that. ripped away from you with no rhyme or reason, just like that with no warning at all. and then boom. suddenly that something is gone, just gone. and we're left grasping for the traces of what was once there.we're left with nothing. just a hope that we could turn back time and redo everything. but we all know thats impossible, so we're faced with the sad cold truth, we're left with nothing, nothing at all

they say everything happens for a reason, but honest to goodness, please tell me whats the reason for this?

suddenly life feels so depressing, with nothing to look forward to anymore. why is life so damn unfair. why is it that people can take things from us just like that and nothing ever gets done about it

): ): ): ): ):

sighh thanks ananya. you're the best study buddy ever!

you ruined my chances. you ruined it. you ruined everything. i hate you. fuck you. fuck you

sometimes things happen to us and it seems so damn unfair cause we did nothing to deserve it. to take a page out of my own book, i guess life sucks that way. i guess its hard telling ourselves that things happen for a reason sometimes. cause we try so hard, and we can't find the reason at all.

Marcus Eng

10 March 1990
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