hanging out and making eyes,
from across the room they stare.
all the gestures, and the waving,
and the talks that they share.
everyday he's look around and wait,
for that smile that she'll wear.

so on saturday sheryl came in the afternoon. had this lunch thingy for my godsisters birthday, she is adorable! so yeah, sheryl came over and we did part of our TOK presentation followed by pizza hut delivery dinner with priss which was then followed b ice cream with lian. yes an eventful saturday. but you know how in life, everything has to balance out, so hence, my sunday was extremely boring. so yeah. SPAIN WON!! YES YES! FERNANDO.... TORRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!! TORRES WINS EURO 2008 FOR ESPANOL! EL NINO! so yes. torres pawned lahm and lehman all at once. so yeah. anyhow, today was kinda boring. nothing really happened except i played quite a bit of soccer which resulted in me pulling my knee -_- i really really hate my knee. urghh. everything is starting to snowball, and i think ive begun to feel the teeniest tiniest bit of urgency and panic. ib, oh ib, what have thou done to us all? i think its really bad how im addicted to bubble tea. or more specifically, chocolate oreo ice blended with pearls. NORMAL pearls, not MINI pearls annabelle!! :D oh oh/ HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTI AND KATHI!! I MISS YOU PAL! I MISS YOU BB!! WHEN ARE YOU GUYS GONNA VISIT AGAIN?!?!?!? TSKKKKKKK!

i can feel the distance. i can feel the difference. somehow, things aren't fitting like they should be. certain pieces are out of place. longing for normal, but somehow, you dont know what normal is.

oh the look that'd melt hearts.
the grin that'd stop steps.
the smile that produces smiles.

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses
You start shaking at the thought
You are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

so its the end of the first week of school. holy cowwww. it literally flew by so quickly. too quickly i think. but it was a good week i guess. a better week than the ones ive had previously. oh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNNY!! HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD AND ALL THAT GOOD STUFF!! :D so did nothing much today. boring boring boring. played soccer during free period. thats been the highlight of the week: SOCCER!!! soccer during recess or free periods have been fun and invigorating! ive missed it like hell. although the one month away from it has left me with zero stamina. oh well. went to coffee club to celebrate johnnys birthday. then went to swensens gelato. i <3 green apple ice cream. so currently, im so addicted to the psp its not even funny. in fact, its down right unhealthy. oh well. thats life. unhealthy. haha. ok im really really bored with absolutely nothing to do. its 9 20 pm with no soccer tonight to look forward to and a really boring weekend coming up. although sheryls coming over tmr for TOK presentation. SPAIN IS IN THE FINAL!!!

hanging out and making eyes,
from across the room they stare.
all the gestures, and the waving,
and the talks that they share.
everyday he's look around and wait,
for that smile that she'll wear.

so 4 days of school have passed. and i'm done with the big history "exam" and i've finished world lit. so thats 2 monkeys of my back. like literally a sigh of relief today. and i dont know why cause those are just 2 of the thousand and one things i have to accomplish. so theres still chinese iop, english ioc, tok presentation, econs commentary, and o course PRELIMS in a months time. wow, looks like more and more fun as the year progresses. no break whatsoever. so today was a relative free and easy day. met kathi after school! havent seen her in soooo long!! (: where in the world are you kristi?!?!?!? so yeah. went to swensens and all.
its funny how sometimes we think about the past and we think about all the things that have happened to us. and its funny cause we look back and we realised how stupid we were and why the heck did we do those things. we want to regret them but its all too late and we cant change the past or how things have worked out. i guess we all make mistakes, stupid mistakes sometimes, and we just gotta take them as learning experiences. thats life, full of wrong turns and many bad decisions. we do stupid things and embarrass ourselves. but hey, nothing we can do about it. its over. gotta learn to move on

i <3 siroopin waffelens!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

so school has officially started.. all the "schools starting in 2 weeks/ a week and a half/ a few days" is all over now. cause schools here. and i dont know, i expected more out of today. it just seemed so weird today, like something wasn't right, something was just a bit off. but then again, we shouldnt harbour too high a hope sometimes, cause the higher your hopes the farther you fall. i watched spain vs italy.. omg. BORINGGGGGGGGG!! no excitement! no scoring!! AND WHY DID ARAGONES TAKE OFF FERNANDO TORRES! WTF! AND WHY WASNT XABI ALONSO STARTED OR EVEN SUBBED IN?!?!?!? oh well. spains through. and because of extra time and penalties, i slept for a grand total of half an hour. which mean that at the end of the day, i was really really dead.

sometimes we take things for granted. sometimes we take important things or granted. sometimes we take important people for granted. maybe its cause they're always there when we do turn to them. maybe we have the knowledge that its safe to say that theyre always gonna catch you when you fall. i guess sometimes we think of them as our safety net. we never do realise how important they are cause they're always there, they're like a constant. but thing is, people aren;t gonna stick around us forever. cause one wrong sentence and boom, suddenly theres a hole in our safety net. it might be a slight negligible tear at first, but the more we take them for granted, the more the hole gets bigger and bigger.. soon there might not be that net anymore. i can't believe you said that sentence. cause honestly, coming from you? please


ok so this is a day too late! SHIT! SORRY ANNABELLE!!! EMOOO GIRLLLL!! omg. its been three hundred and sixty six days. holy crap. i cant believe time flew by so quickly. it honestly felt like just yesterday. well, its been a whole year and a day now. and a lot of shit has happened in between. some good, some bad, some great, some awful. i guess we never know what life throws at us sometimes, we just try to hold on and enjoy the ride. life sucks, shit happens. i guess cause the world spins that way huh? what can we do? haha. well, emo girl, its been an enjoyable year huh. with our extremely long bus rides. extremely emo conversations that make ppl just commit suicide, how weird macdonalds cravings at 3am in the morning after senior/junior dance. CARAMEL SAUCE that comes with apple mcdippers. AND THE LONG LONG WALK THROUGH THE HAUNTED ROAD! AND THE DOGS! AND HOLY CRAP! THAT LAUGHTER AFTER YOU STARTED SINGING THAT CREEPY SONG!! we're suposed to go to the cemetary!! haha oh the christmas present in the nice box with the bulldozer! and helloo! i made you wait once! for like 10 mins!! dont make me bring up me waiting at ntuc at siglap for 45 mins 366 days ago!! AND AND THE TIME I WAITED AN HOUR FOR YOU AT THE STUPID PETROL KIOSK WALKING AROUND THE STORE AT LEAST 20 TIMES!! HAHA!!! youre always late! you cant hurry love! what happens in vegas! the oh so sweet letters! and of course, all the cab rides home. youre like the emoest girl i know, and thats what makes you you! thanks for everything you sexay emo girl!! (:

wow. that was the longest post ive written in quite awhile

i dream of the Asian Winter Games

vindicated,
i am selfish, i am wrong.
i am right i swear i'm right.
i swear i knew it all along..

a large percentage of athletes have suffered injuries playing the sport they love so much. a large percentage of these athletes rest up and will come back and play the sport they enjoy the most. everytime we're injured, doctors tell us to rest for a period of time and then we'll be back to normal. now that is a LIE! after most injuries, and after the restign period, we wont be back to normal the first time we step on the ice or the court or the field. nope. its gonna take us quite awhile for us to regain our fitness our skills our stamina. in fact, there is a percentage of people who never ever go back to normal after their injuries. a small percentage, but a percentage nonetheless. one of my greatest fears is that i will become one of that small percentage. i fear that when my knee slammed into the boards 2+ months ago, that night could've been the last night with me being at 100%.
ssighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ):

hi tea buffet with sheryl kui and bingxi. it was not bad. haha. then had hockey. but thats about it for today. my parents are on leave tomorrow again! CRAPP! DIEEEE!! i cant wait for school to reopen. as weird as that might sound, i really do want school to start up again. oh wells.

I'm in the business of misery,
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass that's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought she was mine he caught her by the mouth.

I told her I can't lie she was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we had caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

5 more days till school reopens!! HAPPY ONE MONTH GF!! HAHA :D :D so anyways. so the weekend was crap and boring. went for english then watched the happening with sheryl and andrew yesterday. it was honestly quite freaky. like some parts were scary and freaky. like there was this woman who just summarised freaky la. but it was a not bad movie. i enjoyed it. did nothing today. charmaines back from hongkong! missed you bro!! ahaha. oh i watchd dont mess with the zohan online! haha i love adam sandler! speaking of love,
I LOVE THE USED!!!! thats all that i've got is like one of my favourite songs!! up there with "earthquakes and sharks" and "A little less sixteen candles a little more touch me". i just spent an hour watching all their music videos and live performances. i've spent the past 3 hours 40 mins looking through youtube for live performaces of various bands. those 220 mins could've been achieving about 500 words of World Lit 2 which is like one third of it. wow. great prioritizing skills marcus!

sometimes all you think about is her. most of the time, all she thinks about is him

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants,
And all the needs
All I dont want to need at all

Now im on my own side,
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind,
It's better that I see it through your eyes

so just like that, 7 days left until its back to the hetic schedule of school. hmmm. i cant believe 3 weeks passed by just like that so fast. had army medical on monday. hmmm, hte needle part was surprisingly not that bad. haha. i conquered my fear!! :D well kinda i guess. so it was 3 long hours in CMPB. but botak jones after was worth it! :D so yeah. sushi tei with ananya and junhung on wednesday. NEOPRINTS! gosh we're so gay! :D :D hahaha. enjoyed the few days of freedom that i got when both my parents were overseas. but theyre back so its back to prison! its june 15th. wow time flies really really quickly.

i kinda miss you

It's all a game of this or that, now versus then
better off against worse for wear
And you’re someone who knows someone who knows someone I once knew
And I just want to be a part of this

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.

Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.

army medical tmr. urghh. and im sooo freaked out by needles. like seriously, theyre one of my greatest fears.. yuckk. so yup, army medical. tomorrow is like one of the very few times im actually allowed out of the house la. wow. thats quite sad. oh well

half the holidays are over. and i think its time to actually do work during the next half. but the thing is, thats what i said 2 weeks ago and i dont think i actually got started

You were everything
That's bad for me
Make no apologies
I'm crushed...
Black and blue
But you know
I'd do it all again for you

secret valentine

I'll be there when your heart stops beating
I'll be there when your last breath's taken away
In the dark,
When there's no-one listening
In the times when we both get carried away

its saturday night and after tomorrow half of the holidays would have passed. time does fly whether you're having fun or not. i'm really really bored and i have absolutely nothing to do. i've been watching old reruns of friends over the past few days. i LOVE friends. its like the funniest show ever created!! so yeah. prelims are coming up. and i've not started to freak out yet. but i'm anticipating freaking out in about a weeks time when my world lit 2 and econs commentary is due. not to mention IOC and the physics lab reports i owe. you know its funny how we knwo we really need to get started on things and yet we cant help but procastinate and keep leaving all our shit till the last minute before freaking out rushing like crazy

i'm your backup friend

i was your ticket

cause you don't know what you do to me

i'm soooo bored stuck at home doing absolutely nothing except math!! urghh.. the only plus points is the stanley cup finals on tv. imagine being 34.4 seconds away from winning the cup. 34. 4 seconds from winning it all. 34.4 seconds from bliss. so close yet so far. cause thats how things seem sometime. we're so close, so damn close to getting something, just for it to get taken away right at the death. close, but no cigar

we get so affected by jealousy and envy. even when we know we shouldnt be jealous, we cant help but feel so envious

Marcus Eng

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