yet another sunday. hung out with andrew and joshua really late last night. and after joshua left, while walking the 45 mins journry to one fullerton, i had this really good heart to heart talk with andrew that ive been wanting to talk to someone about. like been wanting to spill all that and im really grateful that andrew was there to just hear all my shit and all cause it was a real load off my chest so thank you andrew.
andrew really shed light on a lot of thigns last night. and maybe i should take a page out of his book. learn from him and jsut heck care everything. maybe he's right, maybe i do care too much. maybe i really am just too big of a sucker and that once in awhile i gotta just not care stuff. ,maybe i got to learn not to be so dependent and i gotta learn that people do change a lot. i gotta learn that things that i had in school is gonna change a lot and that maybe i wont have that anymore. things change people change friendships change. andrew opened up my eyes last night and made me realise things that maybe i didnt want to ever realise. so maybe i should just take his advice. i want to. but im scared. im scared to lose things so dear to me.
they say that if someone means a lot to you, you shouldnt be scared to let it go cause if you mean a lot to them, theyd come back. but im scared cause i dont know how much i mean. im scared if i let go, it wont come back.
