4 months to ord. then you add 3 more weeks, and i'm off to start a brand new chapter of my life. and hopefully its gonna be a good chapter because i realised that ive wasted the past 20 years of my life achieving absolutely nothing and its high time that i take control of my life and start doing sth meaningful or my life will just slowly rot away into nothingness. that cannot happen. so yes, 2011 marks a brand new era, brand new opportunities which i am ready to grab by the horns. in "miracle", herb brooks said "great moments are born from great opportunities" and here is my great opportunity, so im all pumped and ready to make it a great moment
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"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending" i wanna get that tattooed on my arm.
its finally over. 17 months later, YOG has come and gone and i am honesty finally breathing a huge sigh of relief. the huge monkey finally off my back. its been over for about 17 days now and those last 17 days have been great. freedom is the key word here. i had a more or less pretty awesome trip to phuket. spent about 3 days there and i honestly wanna go back there soon. december hopefully. with my bros.
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i just came home from about 8 hours at coffebean at holland v. the 8 hours were pretty much necessary for me. needed to hear things i suppose. not gonna say why although honestly no one reads this anymore but just in case. if i do look back on this post a few months or years down the road and struggle to remember why these 8 hours at coffeebean were so important, ITS OK cause honestly the memories were not really all that great. i had an important and remarkable night. but important and remarkable memories do not mean they are good or nice memories. so if future marcus, youre reading this, just know remember that sometimes in life we make hasty decisions without thinking, and after that, all we can is just sit, wait and live with the decisions we have hastily made whether we like them or not. and let me tell you now, the night was quite painful, more or less excruciating, and definitely depressing. so if youre reading this months or years after september 17 2010, i really hope you never made the same mistake again or you really are a fucking idiot.
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sometimes we're driven by small glimmers of hope. driven and inspired to do brave but foolish things where we these small glimmers of hope make us think, make us believe that we can succeed when honestly the chances of success are minuscule. yet we get wayward things that tell us to just try hard anyway cause we're so disillusioned with everything around us and we believe in far fetched things that we want to believe in. honestly in times like these, we just need to wake the fuck up cause that small glimmer of belief we think is there, is just false hope
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