as priss said, "not too close but not too far"
i find it kinda funny how people go on and judge people and the things they do and accuse them of being fake and just saying a bunch of things about them when they themselves are like that or they do those sorts of things. hypocrites. pisses you off doesnt it
i had an epiphany just now. like you know how this sudden thought races through your mind. sometimes that thought just makes you think about things you thought were once buried and dead. but shit happens and things can sometimes funnily find a way to resurface. and then sometimes you realise that things werent what they seem and that maybe it wasnt so bad irt resurfaced. cause you learn things, and then you realise how stupid you were. and you feel liike fuck and all. and then you think to yourself, what the fuck am i supposed to do now? that always seems to be the hardest question huh?
bingxi said people change. and he's right. people do change whether you like it or not. for good or for bad, people change all the time. sometimes they change to the point where you barely recognise them anymore and you struggle to look for what you once knew. lifes sad that way. the thing is, when you think about it, you assume that a persons changed for the worse after that persons acting differently and all. and you get all sad about it cause someone you once knew has taken a change for the worse. but you know whats scary? what if that person hasnt changed and that he/she were like that from the start. and the things you looked for in them were all just an act, a facade and now their facade's fading and you realise that this is who they really are. scary huh
deceived and used. i guess i'm a fool
an alright start to a day. an alright math test followed by alright classes which was all before an alright council meeting. i guess to sum it all up, it was an alright day. nothing really interesting happened. nothing to rouse us all from boredom. council was long and draggy and it kinda just dawned on me that a lot of shit is coming up soon and im gonna be really busy. tok presentation tomorrow. do we ever get breaks?
sometimes i wish i had wings. i just wanna spread them and fly away
