i'd do it all again for you
it has been an extremely weird strange week. a week that has brought about many shocks and surprises. happiness anger sadness. but then again, i guess most weeks bring about happiness anger and sadnes.. BUT. this week has been really weird. i cant really decide if its good or bad. i just know that its well, weird. i think sheryl's word epitomizes how i felt towards the later part of the week. PEK CHEK! which i think means frustration?
cabaret on thursday. well. i honestly dont think it was worth $40. maybe $20 tops. i didnt really enjoy all of it? then again im not a big fan of these kinds of things. and i went for the first performance and i think they made more mistakes then cause those that went for the 2nd performance saifd it was better. oh well. i mean, i enjoyed certain parts. some parts were good. some parts were average. other parts were errrrrrrrr, no comment. haha. the 2 chicago songs were good. sayserns play was funny. andrew was hilarious. but i thikn its only cause we knew andrew and hes our friend or that part woudl;ve been a bit boring. oh well. some people sang really good, others went off tune. but hey, they tried their best. so i guess good job guys!
friday kinda of a waste of a day. didnt really accomplish much or learn anything. went to eat after school with jonwong elvina alsony and chris. had this really interesting informative conversation. i guess sometimes you want to know sth. but after knowing it, you wish you didnt.
i want to fast forward past tomorrow to monday. i hate sundays.
i gave up on caring long ago. so now while people are all talking abt whats gonna happen and all that. im sitting on the sidelines waiting for the firewoks to start. i think they're gonna be real beautiful (:
i think its unfair how i blamed for the stupidest things. or like how 2 people do the exact same thing and you get the blame. i mean you dont get angry for your friend who escaped the punishement. but more pissed at the person whos giving out the punishements. like wtf man. first of all, it wasnt even that big a deal. second of all, its a joke. third of all, i wasnt the only one who said it so why only punish me/ fourth of all, WTF
you're practically a stranger. its like i want to hate. cruel and weird as that may sound. but i guess, its been a long time coming now. its not something new or overnight kinda thing. oh wellss. i think my problem is that im bad at not caring and letting go. but i think im better at that now. so i think im good with this not caring letting go part. i think its better. i find it all really funny how. so when everything explodes and everyones caring, i'd be laughing. i used to say how i wish i could turn back the clock and we'd go back to normal/ now/ i dont tjhink i ever want that normal again
i want this stupid hole in my leg to heal; and fill up faster!!! tskkk
disobedient rebellious BIMBOOOO (:
