I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
and tomorrow brings the end of yet another week. this week felt interupted, maybe its cause there was a public holiday right smack in the middle of the week. and i absolutely do not like public holidays at all. its been a pretty mundane week with nothing really significant happening. or i guess, nothing significant that i actually want to talk about.
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
i've become really disillusioned with a lot of things now. cause sometimes, you just feel so let down, so damn dissapointed that its hard to pick yourself up and actually act as if everythings ok. cause no matter how much you dont want to admit it, its affected you, not just the way you feel towards a person or how you're feeling in general. but its affected your whole attitude towards a lot of things around you. you just wanna get on with things and not be affected, but easier said than done. cause suddenly you become so disillusioned with things around you and the stuff you go through, you lose faith in the things you once held so dear and you're scared that the same thing is gonna happen to you again and you jsut want to protect yourself from it.
i guess the thing is, i want to get on with things. but many things in life is easier said than done and this is one of them. cause what do you do when something you put so much faith and trust in lets you down? then how do you learn to trust and put faith in something again.
cause i fell before, and i just fell again.
theres this scene in a really old season of one tree hill between brooke and peyton. and peyton had betrayed brooke earlier
PEYTON: dont worry Brooke. i've got your back no matter what
BROOKE: oh great. just don't put another knife in it
i'm addicted to "your call" by secondhand serenade.
i just want to just fly by. i want to feel free and not trapped and imprisoned.
