you'd think that you'd be numb to the pain by now and be used to how it feels and all. but nope, it still hurts like crazy
Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...
today was fun. i enjoyed myself. it was probably the best day of the hols so far. woke up then went to town to meet char-maine and johan at wheelock for lunch. then johan had to fly off to penang and me and char-maine walked around lido and had gelato which was good. it was really good catching up with the both of them cause i havent seen them since prom, even though me and johan have never had a serious conversation before! haha! but it was really good to see and hang out with my bestfriend again! its been ages since we;ve hung out in town!! shes travelling the world! ditching me for KL this time!! TSKKKKKKK!! its kinda sad, andrew is going to army next week, and kui is flying back to thailand next week as well. sighhh.
after charmaine went home, went to the cage at kallang with kui to play soccer. 2 and a half hours of cage soccer, cant get any better than that man. it was sooo fun, just what i needed as ive been craving soccer for the past dont know how many weeks. although i did get cramp in my calf but whatever, it was worth it and i'd do it again anytime. then after that it was off to bingxis house for his birthday party. due to unforseen circumstances and traffic congestion, we arrived really late. haha. had a really good dinner and threw bingxi in a pool. wii and xbox just made the night that much better. it was fun and we honestly need to crash bingxis house again. i mean like, his house is a frikking mansion and its like there should be those kind of maps with those "you are here" dots. that big. and his guest room is like twice the size of my room. wow. but yes. its 3:19am now and i just reached home about half an hour ago. chatting with junhung now. im falling sick. damn it.
i must be the stupidest or most foolish boy on the face of this little blue and green planet. sigh. today i've learnt a bunch of new insightful things i never thought i'd hear. i guess sometimes it pays to ask questions. guess its a case of whether you want to hear the answer or not. cause i'm lost and not really confused but more of just lost and i dont know what word to use to describe how i feel. this weird feeling, indescribable with words. basically, i just feel like a big fool. some big idiot.
i dont know what to believe anymore neither do i know what i should be feeling. its just this overwhelming wave of emotion engulfing me. i just wanna forget everything, but life aint that easy. cause i dont knwo whats truth and whats lie anymore. i'm angry i'm frustrated i'm sad i'm disappointed. but there's nothing i can do. i dont even know waht im typing now. i dont think im making sense. sighhhhhhhhh. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
