sometimes we start fighting battles that we know we're probably gonna lose even before the battle has started. its like fighting an uphill battle where you have this feeling you're just gonna get crushed and you just ask yourself why the heck are you even fighting in the first place? i guess the answer is that you're fighting for something that means something to you or something that could mean a lot to you. and maybe you have a slim to nothing chance of getting it and you;'ll just hurt or sad in the process, but there's this tiny, miniscule possibility that you might actually get it cause nothing is impossible right? and you fight. you fight hard for this small glimmer of hope that might not even be there in the first place but you fight for it anyhow cause thats how much it means to you or how important it might be. cause in life, nothing comes easy, and you gotta fight for what you want, even if it just ends up with someone else who doesn't have to fight that hard
cause i'm fighting. i don't even know why and i know i shouldn't. but i'm fighting and i'm trying. and i just wish you could see it
so a bunch of things have happened over the past week. kui left for thailand and andrews in army but i dont really wanna talk about that cause its just gonna make me depressed all over again. i'm addicted to left 4 dead now. its a freakishly addictive game and i'm in love with it. and i'm addicted to dota too which is bad. but its off to malaysia tomorrow for 2 friendly matches so no dota till sunday. really short trip but im not really into long trips anyways.
lanned yeterday with mich joshua johnny and then 4 of us joined bingxi and sheryl to watch sex drive which is seriously hilarious. delifrance dinner and then we went clarke quay at night. if only we had $190. had lunched today with 3 CLONES at botak jones opposite cine whcih was a big mistake caus i think there's a beehive near there cause bees were swarming us and freakingdaffy out. she was like screaming at people were staring at her weirdly HAHHA. then went to cine cause deh-seee-riii wanted to eat some jap noodles thingy. then accompanied them on the mrt all the way to senkang which is god knows where on the purple line. i was like sooo nice to them and they kept insulting me! wth man!! i was like how nice to them throughout the whole day and they kept insulting me! TSKKKK! mean mean people. they're just jealous that out of the 4 of us, i have the most unique face. HAHA
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