its a brand new year. year two thousand and nine. brand new year was supposed to bring brand new start. but its the same ol fucking story
its 4:49am now and i just got home not so long ago. junhungs over at my place cause he was lazy to take a cab home so yeah. so i spent the last hour or so of 2008 and the first few hours of 2009 at the triplets' house and nearby playground with the 3 of them and liz, annabelle, my brother and i we dota-ed and we talked and laughed and yeah it was good. finished 2008 and started 2009 with friends fun and laughter and hopefully its gonna remain this way. so yeah its 6:03am now. no it didnt take me alomst an hour and a half to type that para. just that i just finished this long talk with junhung that was really good and i dont know. helped a bit i guess? dont know. im still stuck and lost. hopefully 2009 brings answers
i feel cheated. just.. cheated. but i'm strong. i can deal
i think i'm like digging my own grave. scratch that, its like i've dug it and im just jumping in willingly. what is wrong with me? hah
