its 1 46am tuesday 30th december. the years about to draw to a close and results are out in a weeks time and all i can think of is how much i miss kui. i lost a brohter when he went back and like they say, you never know how much you miss something till its gone. and fuck i miss kui so much. yeah ok this may sound really gay but its losing one of your closest friends. kuis gone. andrews in army. joshua and chang are overseas. johnnys going into army next week. everyones gone. i feel so lost right now. and i kwno its a temporary feeling and its all gonna go away when i wake up but i just cant help but have this feeling of loss and aloneness. urghh.
my head feels like its gonna explode with the over abundance of shit running through it now. i jsut wanna forget it all and just sleep but on the other hand, i wanna sort through everything and think it through.
i stare into oblivion trying my hardest to reclaim all that i have lost
i wish it wasnt 2 am now so i could go rollerblading
