its christmas eve now, less than 24 hours till christmas. but i dont really care.
i hate christmas. i fucking hate christmas. bad things always seem to happen to me at christmas and yeah i may seem petty or whiny for hating christmas cause of that but whatever. its like how people dont eat at a certain restaurant after eating bad food or getting food poisoning from there. or how people dont buy things from a certain store after purchasing bad merchandise before. its the same concept. i frikking hate christmas. its like this time of happiness and hope and blah blah blah. nah. dont really like christmas. yeah i sound like a grinch but im not stealing anyones christmas and i promise i wont ruin anyones christmas so yeah, im not a grinch. i just dont enjoy christmases cause it seems christmas is always bad for me. this year isnt any different and its not even christmas yet.
where did i go wrong
i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
im sorry. and sorry aint enough i know but its a start and i dont know. i want to repair the friendship but i dont know how to go about doing it. so im sorry. and my words probably dont mean a lot to you now but i just want you to know that ill do anything i can to fix this. im sorry, i really am
i love fall out boys new album. i love the lyrics to their songs
right now if you talk to me, i'd smile and it'd seem like everythings normal and everythings ok. but im gonna admit that things arent ok. its not fine. i'll smile but deep down i'm having this anger and disapointment towards you. and we'll laugh and we'll joke and you'll probably never know thats somethings up and maybe i should tell you. but im not going to. cause you should know somethings wrong. and you know the thing is, me not telling you somethings wrong, ironic aint it. its like a taste of your own medicine. you know wahts the thing that pisses me off the most? its not that you didnt tell me earlier or didnt even plan on telling me at all until i asked you. i mean ok i admit, that pissed me off a lot. but what pissed me off even more was that not once did you actually apologise to me. you just acted as if nothing was wrong and just continued like everything was just right and dandy. you couldn't say a simple sorry. was it that hard? or do you believe that you didnt do anything wrong? i dont know. whatever. so yeah. we're gonna see each other and we're gonna smile say hi and ask each other how our holidays have been. from a far it looks like everyhings A okay. but nope, what you cant see are the wounds on my back fresh from where you stabbed me
