new years resolution 1:
to stop being bitter about things. life sucks and shit happens. and we cant control things sometimes and we cant help it if we're sad about things and we definately cant help it if something bad happens to us or something goes against our wishes. but what we can help is how we react to it. i realise i am quite a bitter and sour person and i do get filled with bitterness and resentment when i get sad about things. so yeah, thats gonna be one of my new years resolutions, to be less bitter and sour about things when they dont go my way. im gonna learn to accept things, especially when its out of my power to do anything.
so here's today in a nutshell. went to school for orientation. did banner painting for a real long time, then lucnh then more banner painting before the run through of dry games. then me and bings met chang and sheryl at holland and we went to my house for turkey! sweta priss and lian joined us after and we just chilled there hanging out and talking for a really long time till about 12 30. it was fun. like it feels like it has been forever since we've just sat down and hung out. i guess everyones going in different directions and its like i just want to not move anymore into the future and stay in the present cause im contented with what i have now and yeah i guess i admit im scared of wahts gonna happen in the future.
im scared. im afraid. so help me.
