and even in the darkest of times and in the worst of moments, you somehow find a way to make it all seem like its going to be ok.
today was english IOC. individual oral commentary, omgoodnesss!!! it was so crazy. i thihnk i said OMG OMG OMG at least 20+ times today. i got "strange meeting" by wilfred owen in the end. ok i guess. so so. couldve been better, but then again, could've been worse. GLEN got lucjyt and got DISABLED! TSKKKKKK!! oh last night, me andrew and glen went to priss' house for pizza hut and then hardcore studying for IOC. we were there all the way from 83opm all the way to 3am. thats almost 7 hours of studying!! minus 45 mins for pizza, 15 min coffeebreak and probalby a total of 30 mins of impromptu breaks here and there. ut still 5 hours of hardcore ioc studying! hardcore!! filling our minds with dubliners, wilfred owen, PARALYSIS, FREEDOM, WAR, GAY, DEATHS, IMAGERY, and our all time favourite, QUEER OLD JOSSER! but i guess it was worth it cause it was really beneficial and all and we learnt quite a bit. andrewand glen came over after and we had like 3 hours of sleep! hardcore hardcore. its been a tiring draining last 2 days of school and i should be relieved that its over but i dont have time to be relieved!! tskk! rush rush rush!!!
sunshine sunshine sunshine
you might or might not be reading this. its been a few days now. you think this is fair to me? you dont really understand what i'm going through. ive got my own crap to deal with, plus all the school stress and you pile this onto me. its not fair and i don't like it one bit. it might seem like i dont care at all and that i'm fine and normal, but actually deep down it hurts, and im really affected. but what can i do? nothing/ absolutely friking nothing. cause the balls in your court. your decision. but i guess you made it. how do you think i feel now? its like i can see you acting normal to your other friends and shit. how do you think that makes me feel huh? me feel better? bullshit? and your whole logic and explanation behind your actions? even bigger bullshit. the most nonsensical stupidest shit ive ever heard. and ive heard a lot of nonsensical stupid shit. its not fair. i hope you know that. you know what, i think there's actually a hidden reason behind it. you're doing all this and its not because of the reason you stated. so waht is the real reason? tell me
