what if the one thing that you put a lot of your hope in lets you down? where do you put your hopes in then? whats the point of trying if all we do is fail?whats the point of believing in the best of people if they're gonna let you down in the end?today was a really really off day. like for some reason, i was really off? like not myself. till the point where calvin an tim asked me what was wrong with me and why was i acting so strange. but yeah. today was an off day. it just doesn't seem right somehow. sigh oh well.
the bus ride from school home is really long.. the bus ride from school home is much much longer when i can' t seem to fall asleep and all i do is just sit there and think and ponder and wonder. bleahh, very bad busride today.
you know the song "how to save a life" by the fray? yes its a really good song. the lyrics are really good too. you know the words in the chorus? the main few lines of the chorus? yeahh thats how i feel. bleahh
today the day was not complete. today there were hardly any rays of sunshine passing through the clouds.
someone once said i was a lousy friend, something about not being encouraging or supportive enough? ok. i've been called a lot of things. but i absolutely
HATE it when i'm called a lousy friend. seriously, i get very very annoyed and pissed when someone calls me that. so unless there is evidence that i' was one, don't ever call me that. so back to my story. so yeah i was called that once. ok you know what. there's a difference between a good friend and a supportive friend. a good supportive friend might say "yeah. just try and see what happens. you can do it! good things will happen! i believe in you".. now a better friend might say "ok. the thing is, i dont know whats gonna happen. and something bad might happen and you might get really hurt. so you be careful. if you still wanna do it. i support you 100%. but i want you to be careful cause i dont want you to get hurt. so its up to you in the end."
so in my books, i think the 2nd answer is the better friend. but thats just me. see, the friend that tells you to just go for it and all that is supportive yes. but the 2nd friend is a better friend because he/she is trying to make sure you're being careful and you realise what the dangers are.. you see, many times we just wnat to jump straight in without thinking and we really need a good friend to give us a knock on the head to bring us to our senses.. being supportive is one thing, being a good friend is another. ok, that story might not make that much sense. but yeah. i just needed to get it off my chest cause its been bugging me.
i'm oh so close to coming to this point where i'm losing hope in everything around me. because if something you once held dear lets you down, where do you turn to next?
