so we lost. in div 1 that is. didnt even make playoffs.. sighhh. i guess theres still div 2 semis in monday. cant screw that one up or ill be fucking sad! ): sighhhhh... pressure!!!!
you know everytime i kinda feel bad for what happened. everytime i think maybe its time to forget the past.. everytime i wanna move on. everytime i wanna go back to before, something crops up and makes me even more pissed than i initially was. you know its funny how things work out. cause i mean, last year was good.. this year. well.. crap.. but then again, thinking back on it, the trust issue was kinda one way. i mean.. i trusted you and told you everything. and i donno if you didnt trust me or what cause you didnt tell me squat and had to lie about everything. funny how you're the one always lying and yet i trusted you so damn much. i guess life's funny that way huh. its like you chose her.. but every single time something went wrong, we were always there for you no matter what. i was asked this 2 days ago, "if he was in trouble, would you risk getting in trouble in order to save him?" and i answered yes just like that with no hesitation whatsover. i guess im stupid that way huh.
i wish i really could tell you everything. but i know that something will go wrong someway somehow. i mean. things got kinda messed up. and when we tried to solve it a few times it didnt really work out. and thus this pretending the other person doesnt exist thing. you know, i honestly thought things would just be fine and all after we both went our separate ways. and i guess things didnt. i mean, im still really worried for you. everytime i hear you get in trouble. and how so many teachers are saying stuff about you now. and how someone told me to talk to you cause i need to get you out of constant trouble. and how someone indirectly said i was the cause of your behaviour. and i kinda feel guilty. maybe i should've accepted responsibility. maybe i should've done something about it. too late now huh. i mean, it takes 2 hands to clap. i guess its both our faults? i mean like we shouldnt blame each other.. and i donno. but like. i just wish you'd stay out of trouble. i mean i have no right saying all this but im just trying to look ut for you and shit. casue i dont like what im seeing now.. but yeah. whatever
i really wanna tell you something. but i dont know if i should
