hello there the angel from my nightmare
so on tuesday we had a soccer match which we lost 4-3. and then sleepover in school was really fun. played soccer in the hall with a bunch of people. played cards and just sat around and talked and hung out while waiting for 4:30 am to come about so we could go to the stadium at that ungodly hour so we could start decorating the stadium. it was really really stupid and retarded and we were so tired and shit. at like 6:30 am while waiting for the macdonalds to arrive, ananya and i sat at the entrance and we did this peace sign with 4 fingers. i think its from start trek. and we said to people streaming in, "we come in peace. take us to your leader." we did that non stop for like the whole entire morning. haha. sleep deprivation does that to you. the whole celebration thing was CRAP and a complete and utter WASTE OF TIME!! omg..i almost died of boredom and from the damn sun. went to vivo for lunch with tabby chloe and priss at carls junior. then sheryl came and shopped for awhile. went on home. movie marathon at night. oh. identity is a really really good movie. its shocking and thrilling! nad damn surprising! see no evil is good too! calvins birthday today. his friends came over. omfg, i felt liek a damn slave. stupid brother of mine. then me nat and priss were walking around the park with chocolate nad singing stupid songs really loudly. i guess the last 2-3 werent that bad.
the movie "identity" made me think. what if there were no such things as coincidences. what if everything was already planned out and we're just following a path that has been set for each of us?
while we were walking, priss commented that there were no stars out tonight. the sky was just empty and black. i guess sometimes life is like that. really dark and empty. it makes us feel empty and lonely and we feel lost cause we dont know what to do. sometimes we're just waiting for that something or that someone to just shine brightly to give us hope or just show us the way. sometimes we find our stars in that big vast empty place of life. sometimes we just find more darkness
what if everything happened for a reason? what if you were always meant to do something?
i dont want to
