a rollercoaster goes up and down, twists and turns, loops and all of that. yesterday was a rollercoaster ride of emotions for me. i hate rollercoasters. i went to bingxis house in the morning. went to hang out wiht charmaine in the afternoon. met the guys for a bit after that. had reunion dinner at night. went to airport at night. i'm really tired. tired of everything now. maybe now army doesnt look like such a bad place anymore. i dont know. i dont know a lot of things anymore. i dont know about a lot of things that were once sure to me. things that i knew were true or that were always there, now they dont seem all that certain. maybe in life, nothing really ever stays 100% certain. cause life sucks and shit happens and things will always change. i want to give up on everything now. let go. i want things to go back to how they were. maybe then, this stupid feeling will go away
cause this feeling of nauseua came up and how i just wanted to roll my eyes. i even wanted to laugh. weird i know
you make me feel so damn useless
